04-16-2013, 08:54 PM
More and more I find myself confused, depressed and frustrated, and what I originally thought was BAMM in all this, I am now thinking is not. I am recognizing the influences from a time in the past when something that is happening now also happened, and they are definitely related. What BAMM is doing is trying to drag me forward to the goal, while I am being crushed to death by this other influence. It is definitely making things difficult, but there is no escape. I must go through it, and therefore I must do my best to make this work.
To this end, I am fighting the part of me that is fighting me on working on subliminals. Today I created a new title. It was like pulling teeth, and took me twice as long to do, but it is done. Now it goes to Tier 2 testing.
Part of me is tempted to build another 3G-> 4G upgrade, before bed, but I am genuinely too tired to think straight.
Tomorrow (later today) I will pick another target and drag myself to its completion, come Hell or high water.
Movement must happen. Whether or not my inner self wants to comply... movement forward must happen, because I absolutely cannot stay where I am now.
To this end, I am fighting the part of me that is fighting me on working on subliminals. Today I created a new title. It was like pulling teeth, and took me twice as long to do, but it is done. Now it goes to Tier 2 testing.
Part of me is tempted to build another 3G-> 4G upgrade, before bed, but I am genuinely too tired to think straight.
Tomorrow (later today) I will pick another target and drag myself to its completion, come Hell or high water.
Movement must happen. Whether or not my inner self wants to comply... movement forward must happen, because I absolutely cannot stay where I am now.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
