04-10-2013, 01:47 PM
Stage 4 - Day 17,
Daytime experiences: when I am consciously grounding myself and not giving a f*** I can more easily enter my real authentic self, like taking nothing too seriously and just doing what I feel is right in the moment.
I do miss a lot of opportunities but it's more based on my habits of not going over to the girl.
I also have a bit harder time to make a smile but I think it is very much because when I smiled before it was smiling because of my gentleness and now when I think of it I sense that many times it has been validation seeking. I do need to put a smirk on without emotions attached to it.
By not smiling as I was doing before and by grounding myself consciously, the girl usually hold eye-contact much longer than before. I also sense women are sensing me and it is like a social pressure somehow but by holding my ground, I feel I can relax and still be focused much more consistent.
Nighttime experience: Tried some RSD stuff out and most girls seems to be ok by me calling them sluts
Overall: I am really feeling entitled to say hi to a girl or a group of girls. It's very rarely that they reject me as long as I can keep talking and leading in the beginning.
Feeling so entitled also makes a rejection like, "WTF?" I had a girl push my hand away, in a bar at a small dance-floor, when I held it out to let her take it. I pushed her as she were going away right after she pushed my hand and she looked over her shoulder and I gave her the eyes of "YOU ARE DISGUSTING".
The next hour she placed herself near me all the time, sometimes (I think) even touching me lightly from time to time, while I was talking with different friends.
I kinda knew she wanted to apologize but I actually felt quite annoyed, like really disgusted by her action, so I felt like if I did go over to her, I would feel very bad about myself for not being true to myself and she would probably tune in on that and maybe make it even worse, she was the cutest girl in the room though...
Daytime experiences: when I am consciously grounding myself and not giving a f*** I can more easily enter my real authentic self, like taking nothing too seriously and just doing what I feel is right in the moment.
I do miss a lot of opportunities but it's more based on my habits of not going over to the girl.
I also have a bit harder time to make a smile but I think it is very much because when I smiled before it was smiling because of my gentleness and now when I think of it I sense that many times it has been validation seeking. I do need to put a smirk on without emotions attached to it.
By not smiling as I was doing before and by grounding myself consciously, the girl usually hold eye-contact much longer than before. I also sense women are sensing me and it is like a social pressure somehow but by holding my ground, I feel I can relax and still be focused much more consistent.
Nighttime experience: Tried some RSD stuff out and most girls seems to be ok by me calling them sluts
Overall: I am really feeling entitled to say hi to a girl or a group of girls. It's very rarely that they reject me as long as I can keep talking and leading in the beginning.
Feeling so entitled also makes a rejection like, "WTF?" I had a girl push my hand away, in a bar at a small dance-floor, when I held it out to let her take it. I pushed her as she were going away right after she pushed my hand and she looked over her shoulder and I gave her the eyes of "YOU ARE DISGUSTING".
The next hour she placed herself near me all the time, sometimes (I think) even touching me lightly from time to time, while I was talking with different friends.
I kinda knew she wanted to apologize but I actually felt quite annoyed, like really disgusted by her action, so I felt like if I did go over to her, I would feel very bad about myself for not being true to myself and she would probably tune in on that and maybe make it even worse, she was the cutest girl in the room though...
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
