03-22-2013, 11:37 AM
I think I discovered a huge negative belief today. I've been using EFT on it to help let it go. My belief was that everyone secretly hated me or does hate me. This obviously isn't the one belief responsible for my anxiety, but I think it was a very powerful one. It would explain my intense anxiety around people for no apparent reason. If I held the unconscious belief that everyone hated me then it would make sense that's why I've always been on guard or afraid of them.
Another one was that I'm not important. When I was a kid my mom ignored me at times and I feel like I internalized the belief that whatever I had to say wasn't important and therefore I wasn't either. I brushed it away at times thinking it was too simple or the fact that I recognized it wasn't true was enough. But I realized that the beliefs have to be let go of on a deeper level, not just a conscious understanding.
I feel better now. But I'm not gonna get ahead of myself. It's funny when I have these small victories I tend to think that I've fixed everything. But there's still work to be done. This will move me up a few steps, but I know there might still be some blocks that I need to clear out.
That being said. I've looked at something called avoidant personality disorder. At first I could recognize all the symptoms as me having them. But after changing these beliefs I feel better and can't relate as much. There's a difference between not wanting to feel a certain way and actually feeling that way. After working on these beliefs I don't have to pretend to feel better, I actually do.
Another one was that I'm not important. When I was a kid my mom ignored me at times and I feel like I internalized the belief that whatever I had to say wasn't important and therefore I wasn't either. I brushed it away at times thinking it was too simple or the fact that I recognized it wasn't true was enough. But I realized that the beliefs have to be let go of on a deeper level, not just a conscious understanding.
I feel better now. But I'm not gonna get ahead of myself. It's funny when I have these small victories I tend to think that I've fixed everything. But there's still work to be done. This will move me up a few steps, but I know there might still be some blocks that I need to clear out.
That being said. I've looked at something called avoidant personality disorder. At first I could recognize all the symptoms as me having them. But after changing these beliefs I feel better and can't relate as much. There's a difference between not wanting to feel a certain way and actually feeling that way. After working on these beliefs I don't have to pretend to feel better, I actually do.
