03-21-2013, 01:28 PM
I suppose you feel like if people see the monster in your closet they'll start gunning in the other direction or simply disengage with you completely. Same as me.
For me that stems from wanting to not just be liked but to be liked the way I want to be liked however odd that sounds. I went to a person's house the other night and much of the time I felt like I had to play "chameleon" to get by. I admire what you said about AM and feeling like your trying to simply be something different when you actually want to empower your own individuality.
I always felt like I downplayed my natural empathy in order for AM to shine through me. I dunno if thats a good thing or not. Btw if you want AM5 I can send it to you. Your a veteran on the forum and people really do cherish your views. Its more useful to have it being used by someone else than to have it sit on my computer. (I'll make sure to delete it from my computer to stay within rules of the shop/forum like I did when I sent stuff to Spiral)
For me that stems from wanting to not just be liked but to be liked the way I want to be liked however odd that sounds. I went to a person's house the other night and much of the time I felt like I had to play "chameleon" to get by. I admire what you said about AM and feeling like your trying to simply be something different when you actually want to empower your own individuality.
I always felt like I downplayed my natural empathy in order for AM to shine through me. I dunno if thats a good thing or not. Btw if you want AM5 I can send it to you. Your a veteran on the forum and people really do cherish your views. Its more useful to have it being used by someone else than to have it sit on my computer. (I'll make sure to delete it from my computer to stay within rules of the shop/forum like I did when I sent stuff to Spiral)
