Overcome Fear, Guilt, and Shame

[mat422]

I think I'm done with this subliminal for now. I've noticed a definite decrease in guilt and shame. It's helped me stop comparing myself to others and to just focus on bettering myself. I understand the hardships I've dealt with can't be judged by others because they haven't experienced them like me. It's easy to sit on the outside and give advice to others, but without the experience of what they feel you can't truly know how things might be more difficult. That whole spiderweb of guilt and shame that kept me in a cycle of depression has faded significantly.

As far as overcoming fear. I have noticed improvements. Fear existed in my mind like this wall almost. It was less of a physical feeling and more of a frustrated inability. Like I wanted to push forward, but my subconscious wouldn't let me. I've noticed there are things that don't bother me as much anymore. I feel like I'm not as consumed by this imaginary sense of things going wrong. It's just nice to be able to remove the unnecessary fear. I don't think it went as far as I would have liked it to go though. But I feel like maybe attacking things from a different angle would help.

One issue that I had was that I had very vivid and terrifying nightmares. The nightmares themselves didn't bother me, but I think the physiological effects of them left me drained the next day. Then any stress on top of that really did me in.

Anyway, I'm done with this sub. Gonna take a break for a week, or a few days then start alpha 2011 again. Been a while since I did that.