03-05-2013, 07:31 PM
Still clearing a lot of stuff out. It's like spring cleaning, but for my head. Some little shifts here and there. Nothing too drastic, but it's noticeable. I'm dying to run through alpha again. It's been a while since I've done that. I'm debating if I should just go through 2011 again or wait. If I start 2011 now I won't be able to switch it out for 5.0 when I get the money for it.
Something I realized when I went into the city the other day. I'm from the suburbs, so everything was a little uncomfortable. Especially growing up my dad was always telling me to be careful in the city. I feel like he made me feel like it's a really dangerous place. But my dad tends to be a worrier to begin with, I can't help but feel he subconsciously pushed that on me. Anyway I know there are some guys out there that try to be tough because of big egos. But me, I mostly want to be more alpha just so I'm equipped to handle whatever is thrown my way. I always wonder if I'd even need these subliminals if people weren't so obsessed with trying to give others a hard time. Then again I've always been dedicated to my own growth, I never say good enough I just keep pushing. So I'm likely to test just how far I can go.
Something I realized when I went into the city the other day. I'm from the suburbs, so everything was a little uncomfortable. Especially growing up my dad was always telling me to be careful in the city. I feel like he made me feel like it's a really dangerous place. But my dad tends to be a worrier to begin with, I can't help but feel he subconsciously pushed that on me. Anyway I know there are some guys out there that try to be tough because of big egos. But me, I mostly want to be more alpha just so I'm equipped to handle whatever is thrown my way. I always wonder if I'd even need these subliminals if people weren't so obsessed with trying to give others a hard time. Then again I've always been dedicated to my own growth, I never say good enough I just keep pushing. So I'm likely to test just how far I can go.
