03-03-2013, 10:51 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-03-2013, 12:32 PM by LionMonkey.)
Stage 3 - Day 30,
Yesterday night I was out with the main focus on myself, not to have fun and entertain but on that I am the source of my reality, I am the source of my value. Nothing outside can or will give me value. Only I can create it within myself.
It turns out you become a bit like an "asshole" when you have that. It's like the having something going on in your life feeling.
I felt like the man as I walked into the cocktail bar. Greeted the people I knew and found a spot at the bar where I did my own thing. Ordered an old fashioned and enjoyed it fully.
The bar was shaped like a horseshoe. While I moved to the music I noticed a lot of attention on me from time to time on the other sides of the bar.
I moved around the bar a bit and sometimes small-talked with people standing besides me.
I remember a particular girl this night.
An hour in as I walk around I notice a lot of girls smiling to me. I was on my way upstairs to get some fresh air. Hit eye contact with a bit tall, beautiful blonde with the greatest little ass on the stairs and we naturally talked. Holding hands for 10-15 seconds as we exchanged names, standing in the middle of the stairs, people walking past
Talked a bit. Asked me if I was going to this club afterwards.
me: "probably not, it costs 100 and it's a place where you have to know people before it's fun"
her: "you know me..." (like, hey.. you know me.. you know ME!)
Her friend was also really cute and she looked at me more lingering but she knew that her friend was hotter and she went for me so she was more passive.
I asked her if she worked there
her: no, why
me: since you asked me if I was going there
Anyways, a bit later I was near the smoking room, a great song just came on, checking myself out in the mirror. Then I noticed the blonde in the smoking area and we hit eye contact again. She stood with her friend and some big guy that just had started a conversation with them. She motioned for me to come over so I did.
I asked her for a cigarette and she's like "do you smoke?"
me: "no, just party-smoker"
her: "so you are 'taking' cigarettes from girls?"
I looked at her like, yeah?
her: "it's okay.. you asked nice"
me: "I'm always asking nice
"
(It felt like the roles had been swapped)
She asked me if I like to dance, if I am good at it etc.
I asked if they were going to the club when the bar closes and she said yes.
Then she asked me, "where do you live?"
me: "10 minutes away from the central metro"
her: "that's nice"
me: "yeah, I've just moved there [short inspirational talk about my excitement for this great apartment]"
her: "do you live by yourself?"
me: "no I live with a friend"
Then she slowly turned away and went to the toilet with her friend.
Pretty direct of her. I was 100% sure that if I did live by myself, it would have ended differently but this isn't the end.
As the bar was closing, one of my friends who works there found two wristband for free entrance to the club, so he gave me one. Nice!
I met the girls outside the club as we stood and waited to be let in 50-100 people. We didn't get let in the first round and some people left. The two girls were walking away and I ran over to them and asked where they were going.
them: "to xyz club"
me: "oh okay"
her: "you are not coming?"
me: "nahh"
Second round 10 mins after, we got let in. I see the girls came back.
Fast forward 1 hour in, I notice the blondes friend dancing dirty with some guy she has found. We hit eye-contact. The blonde came over to me but her friend immediately took her attention. Then this tall guy got her away from her friend and they began to start dirty dancing.
After a while she came over to me after almost kissing with the guy and told me that the guy is weird. Why did she come to me after the intimate dance? Never know.
I half-assed my move and as I was going to grab her the guy also came and took her. She was more responsive to the guy after the emotions that has been involved between them or maybe it was just because me half-assing it.
They began to dance dirty again and eventually she was leaving with her friend. The guy got a quick make-out but only because he was persistent.
Later I saw the same guy looking all worn out at the bar. Like.. puff.. girl gone.. happiness gone.. what a shame...
I would had really liked to get to know this girl better but the circumstances just didn't allow it. Also I think I sensed that I would be too needy and miss my feeling of value if I tried to take her from the guy.
That's the thing when I'm all chill and stuff that I rarely take much action to manipulate the circumstances in my favor. I'm just really passive but when I'm put on the spot where there's a conflict I usually take great actions...
All in all, it was a fun night and with this focus I feel like I'm being more attractive every day there goes
Yesterday night I was out with the main focus on myself, not to have fun and entertain but on that I am the source of my reality, I am the source of my value. Nothing outside can or will give me value. Only I can create it within myself.
It turns out you become a bit like an "asshole" when you have that. It's like the having something going on in your life feeling.
I felt like the man as I walked into the cocktail bar. Greeted the people I knew and found a spot at the bar where I did my own thing. Ordered an old fashioned and enjoyed it fully.
The bar was shaped like a horseshoe. While I moved to the music I noticed a lot of attention on me from time to time on the other sides of the bar.
I moved around the bar a bit and sometimes small-talked with people standing besides me.
I remember a particular girl this night.
An hour in as I walk around I notice a lot of girls smiling to me. I was on my way upstairs to get some fresh air. Hit eye contact with a bit tall, beautiful blonde with the greatest little ass on the stairs and we naturally talked. Holding hands for 10-15 seconds as we exchanged names, standing in the middle of the stairs, people walking past
Talked a bit. Asked me if I was going to this club afterwards.
me: "probably not, it costs 100 and it's a place where you have to know people before it's fun"
her: "you know me..." (like, hey.. you know me.. you know ME!)
Her friend was also really cute and she looked at me more lingering but she knew that her friend was hotter and she went for me so she was more passive.
I asked her if she worked there
her: no, why
me: since you asked me if I was going there
Anyways, a bit later I was near the smoking room, a great song just came on, checking myself out in the mirror. Then I noticed the blonde in the smoking area and we hit eye contact again. She stood with her friend and some big guy that just had started a conversation with them. She motioned for me to come over so I did.
I asked her for a cigarette and she's like "do you smoke?"
me: "no, just party-smoker"
her: "so you are 'taking' cigarettes from girls?"
I looked at her like, yeah?
her: "it's okay.. you asked nice"
me: "I'm always asking nice
"(It felt like the roles had been swapped)
She asked me if I like to dance, if I am good at it etc.
I asked if they were going to the club when the bar closes and she said yes.
Then she asked me, "where do you live?"
me: "10 minutes away from the central metro"
her: "that's nice"
me: "yeah, I've just moved there [short inspirational talk about my excitement for this great apartment]"
her: "do you live by yourself?"
me: "no I live with a friend"
Then she slowly turned away and went to the toilet with her friend.
Pretty direct of her. I was 100% sure that if I did live by myself, it would have ended differently but this isn't the end.
As the bar was closing, one of my friends who works there found two wristband for free entrance to the club, so he gave me one. Nice!
I met the girls outside the club as we stood and waited to be let in 50-100 people. We didn't get let in the first round and some people left. The two girls were walking away and I ran over to them and asked where they were going.
them: "to xyz club"
me: "oh okay"
her: "you are not coming?"
me: "nahh"
Second round 10 mins after, we got let in. I see the girls came back.
Fast forward 1 hour in, I notice the blondes friend dancing dirty with some guy she has found. We hit eye-contact. The blonde came over to me but her friend immediately took her attention. Then this tall guy got her away from her friend and they began to start dirty dancing.
After a while she came over to me after almost kissing with the guy and told me that the guy is weird. Why did she come to me after the intimate dance? Never know.
I half-assed my move and as I was going to grab her the guy also came and took her. She was more responsive to the guy after the emotions that has been involved between them or maybe it was just because me half-assing it.
They began to dance dirty again and eventually she was leaving with her friend. The guy got a quick make-out but only because he was persistent.
Later I saw the same guy looking all worn out at the bar. Like.. puff.. girl gone.. happiness gone.. what a shame...
I would had really liked to get to know this girl better but the circumstances just didn't allow it. Also I think I sensed that I would be too needy and miss my feeling of value if I tried to take her from the guy.
That's the thing when I'm all chill and stuff that I rarely take much action to manipulate the circumstances in my favor. I'm just really passive but when I'm put on the spot where there's a conflict I usually take great actions...
All in all, it was a fun night and with this focus I feel like I'm being more attractive every day there goes
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
