02-28-2013, 05:12 AM
Yeah. Looking back to the things that I have done in the past I believe that I am not taking as much action. I didn't make enough move to take the steps and take the relationship further. I've had lots of regrets as such.
I remember this quote:
"“All The Woulda-Coulda-Shouldas
Layin' In The Sun,
Talkin' 'Bout The Things
They Woulda-Coulda-Shoulda Done...
But All Those Woulda-Coulda-Shouldas
All Ran Away And Hid
From One Little Did.” ― Shel Silverstein
I mean that alone reminds me of how I should live my life man. Then I remembered when I was a kid. Like when I was a toddler. When my parents said I should dance, I will dance. Saw a couple of my pictures back then and I was happy. I didn't care what others think, I just effing do it. When I was a kid they even made me a prince on a show and I have a partner which is a princess. If I remember correctly she was cute so I kiss her at the cheeks in the end. And yeah I just did it. Then after that my teachers, grown ups, my older relatives told me to be nice, please others, behave etc. All the social conditioning man. They need me to be a nice controlled individual. Then I hit puberty and got all these hormones. It was a downhill from then.
The thing is I realize that all these attracting women, becoming a man, becoming sociable in general, I mean I have them already. As a child I did pretty much great. I just become affected so much by others that I believe it was the truth.
On the plus side, at least we all have the capacity to change. And it is what I am doing now.
I remember this quote:
"“All The Woulda-Coulda-Shouldas
Layin' In The Sun,
Talkin' 'Bout The Things
They Woulda-Coulda-Shoulda Done...
But All Those Woulda-Coulda-Shouldas
All Ran Away And Hid
From One Little Did.” ― Shel Silverstein
I mean that alone reminds me of how I should live my life man. Then I remembered when I was a kid. Like when I was a toddler. When my parents said I should dance, I will dance. Saw a couple of my pictures back then and I was happy. I didn't care what others think, I just effing do it. When I was a kid they even made me a prince on a show and I have a partner which is a princess. If I remember correctly she was cute so I kiss her at the cheeks in the end. And yeah I just did it. Then after that my teachers, grown ups, my older relatives told me to be nice, please others, behave etc. All the social conditioning man. They need me to be a nice controlled individual. Then I hit puberty and got all these hormones. It was a downhill from then.
The thing is I realize that all these attracting women, becoming a man, becoming sociable in general, I mean I have them already. As a child I did pretty much great. I just become affected so much by others that I believe it was the truth.
On the plus side, at least we all have the capacity to change. And it is what I am doing now.
"Nothing in the world can take the place of Persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent."
