02-24-2013, 08:22 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-24-2013, 08:43 AM by LionMonkey.)
I like that very much 
Stage 3 - Day 23,
I'm hangover as I'm writing this. My thoughts are not clear, yet when I focus on my thoughts I can quickly become consumed in them and really feel like I AM EXPERIENCING THEM. Then I snap out of it and I realize I've just come out of a trance or something...
I find this interesting. When I haven't been drinking and my thoughts are more clear I have a harder time to meditate than when I had been drinking and let loose the day before.
Feeling weak though. Not much masculine power in me right now, yet I feel I can really love and appreciate a beautiful woman because I am feeling very care free. Maybe it's the estrogen from yesterdays alcohol...
Yesterday I used much of my time with my brain turned off. Just relaxing, chilling, no thinking of school, projects, anything!
When I went out I felt I could socialize very easily. I felt no social pressure or tension.
As the night progressed I met more girls. My focus was on the right spots. I gave good energy out to people I met and socialized around a bit.
There were 3 girls I met that I thought was great:
Girl 1: a girl me and my buddies had met before. She was in this little club/bar with some friends. An open and sexual girl with a look of innocence. I could feel an insecurity from her by the way she sometimes tried to take the lead and not relax in her femininity.
Half an hour after meeting her and her friends, I put my hand forward and told her to come up with me and dance. She accepted. We went to the dance-floor and then she asked me what I did. I said, "you are asking me that now?" she could see it was nonsense and we began to dance. Some dirty dancing, close and intimate, sexy and a bit wild.
She was like, "ahhh ahh" when we were really close to kiss. I held my ground and it happened a few times. Then she said, "shall we get something to drink?" and we went back to our table.
She took the last seat spot available then stood up and let me sit on it and then sat on my lap while she talked with some guys.
I didn't want to put all in on her, especially when she didn't wanted to kiss before, which would have amplified our attraction to each other and it would be a win-win thing instead of a draw-draw thing, so I stood up and took a tour around the venue.
Girl 2: As I'm walking through this other small room (actually the same room where a random hot girl came up to me and asked me if she could kiss me because of a bet with that guy over there for a drink which happened two months ago),
I hit eye-contact with a beautiful blonde girl and I'm walking straight in her direction.
Can't remember how our interaction started. Something like she asked me what I did and I told her I studied social dynamics and female psychology. She suggested that we moved to a table just nearby, away from her friends.
So there was this average guy standing by himself, who I had a talk with before.
The girl asked me, "tell me something about those two" and pointed to the guy and the girl he was with.
I told her that they were lovers, boyfriend-girlfriend. She was amused. She told me she knew them and that the guy was crazy, that the guy hit the girl (hot girl) and the girl can't get herself away from him. That she was too weak.
She asked me what I thought, and I said I can't tell. I've only spoken with him for a very little time.
She had many friends there, coming one after one and all of them were girls. The guy and his girl came to say goodbye and as he stands there the blonde was intensely focused on him (I don't know what it is but I've had girls tell me that some guy is weird or something but when the guy comes by, she focuses all her attention on him. I got a feeling of that they want that guy to f*** her but I'm not 100% sure)
The guy stands there and ignores her, talks a bit with me as we looked at another guy saying farewell to two cute girls.
He was like, "That's so meaningless!" I sensed he was a real caveman (an approachable one)
Now many of her friends was gone but she was still there with me. I wanted her but she already told me she's got a boyfriend but she didn't want me to leave. Said I was beautiful and cute and I told her likewise.
Told me I was her new best friend then denied it because she just lost her best friend two months ago, talk talk talk..
Asked me if I had a girlfriend and why not. Told her I didn't like obligations and that I have to be with a girl for quite some time before becoming exclusive...
I was very sexual throughout the interaction. In the end I told her that I have to go now because this is going to end bad. I couldn't keep myself away from her. I said she could find me if she changes her mind.
She told me she really has to go pee and asked me if I was going to stay there and wait for her.
I denied and as she left she said, "you have a good heart. you are a good human."
The bar/club was closing soon and my friends were already headed to another bar to drink some port-wine! Love that stuff but gives headache next day! Worth it though.
Girl 3: We are sitting and playing some dice. Suddenly a blonde ask us if her and her male friend could join us. I said sure immediately. Usually I'm very slow at that. When they sat and I got a good look on the blonde I was stunned.
She introduced herself and I gave her a compliment immediately in front of everyone which I usually don't do.
This woman was the most beautiful woman I've seen since I can't remember. She stole my heart by her exuding femininity and the way she looked. She must have been around late 20's start 30's.
I couldn't keep myself away from her either. Shit. I was exuding desire for her when we interacted. She told me she was seeing this French guy, who she met while she was in Taiwan doing work. I really didn't listen to much of what she said because it didn't matter.
Anyways she was going home and I just saw the beginning of "Spread" before I went out, it went something like this:
me: "you are going home, alone?"
her: "yes"
me: "that must be lonely!"
her: "nono, I live two girls [little details about the girls]
me: "let me follow you home"
Can't remember what happened. I hugged her gave her a kiss on the chin and she gave me one too.
I was persistent but I could have been more persistent. Actually with all the three girls, I'm sure something more would have happened if I kept going.
Damn, this girl was heartbreaking... if every woman was like her heaven would be on earth!
All in all, an awesome, f***ing great night!
If you have any suggestions on my experiences, please let me know. It's always interesting to see a more experienced persons perspective on this stuff!
Stage 3 - Day 23,
I'm hangover as I'm writing this. My thoughts are not clear, yet when I focus on my thoughts I can quickly become consumed in them and really feel like I AM EXPERIENCING THEM. Then I snap out of it and I realize I've just come out of a trance or something...
I find this interesting. When I haven't been drinking and my thoughts are more clear I have a harder time to meditate than when I had been drinking and let loose the day before.
Feeling weak though. Not much masculine power in me right now, yet I feel I can really love and appreciate a beautiful woman because I am feeling very care free. Maybe it's the estrogen from yesterdays alcohol...
Yesterday I used much of my time with my brain turned off. Just relaxing, chilling, no thinking of school, projects, anything!
When I went out I felt I could socialize very easily. I felt no social pressure or tension.
As the night progressed I met more girls. My focus was on the right spots. I gave good energy out to people I met and socialized around a bit.
There were 3 girls I met that I thought was great:
Girl 1: a girl me and my buddies had met before. She was in this little club/bar with some friends. An open and sexual girl with a look of innocence. I could feel an insecurity from her by the way she sometimes tried to take the lead and not relax in her femininity.
Half an hour after meeting her and her friends, I put my hand forward and told her to come up with me and dance. She accepted. We went to the dance-floor and then she asked me what I did. I said, "you are asking me that now?" she could see it was nonsense and we began to dance. Some dirty dancing, close and intimate, sexy and a bit wild.
She was like, "ahhh ahh" when we were really close to kiss. I held my ground and it happened a few times. Then she said, "shall we get something to drink?" and we went back to our table.
She took the last seat spot available then stood up and let me sit on it and then sat on my lap while she talked with some guys.
I didn't want to put all in on her, especially when she didn't wanted to kiss before, which would have amplified our attraction to each other and it would be a win-win thing instead of a draw-draw thing, so I stood up and took a tour around the venue.
Girl 2: As I'm walking through this other small room (actually the same room where a random hot girl came up to me and asked me if she could kiss me because of a bet with that guy over there for a drink which happened two months ago),
I hit eye-contact with a beautiful blonde girl and I'm walking straight in her direction.
Can't remember how our interaction started. Something like she asked me what I did and I told her I studied social dynamics and female psychology. She suggested that we moved to a table just nearby, away from her friends.
So there was this average guy standing by himself, who I had a talk with before.
The girl asked me, "tell me something about those two" and pointed to the guy and the girl he was with.
I told her that they were lovers, boyfriend-girlfriend. She was amused. She told me she knew them and that the guy was crazy, that the guy hit the girl (hot girl) and the girl can't get herself away from him. That she was too weak.
She asked me what I thought, and I said I can't tell. I've only spoken with him for a very little time.
She had many friends there, coming one after one and all of them were girls. The guy and his girl came to say goodbye and as he stands there the blonde was intensely focused on him (I don't know what it is but I've had girls tell me that some guy is weird or something but when the guy comes by, she focuses all her attention on him. I got a feeling of that they want that guy to f*** her but I'm not 100% sure)
The guy stands there and ignores her, talks a bit with me as we looked at another guy saying farewell to two cute girls.
He was like, "That's so meaningless!" I sensed he was a real caveman (an approachable one)
Now many of her friends was gone but she was still there with me. I wanted her but she already told me she's got a boyfriend but she didn't want me to leave. Said I was beautiful and cute and I told her likewise.
Told me I was her new best friend then denied it because she just lost her best friend two months ago, talk talk talk..
Asked me if I had a girlfriend and why not. Told her I didn't like obligations and that I have to be with a girl for quite some time before becoming exclusive...
I was very sexual throughout the interaction. In the end I told her that I have to go now because this is going to end bad. I couldn't keep myself away from her. I said she could find me if she changes her mind.
She told me she really has to go pee and asked me if I was going to stay there and wait for her.
I denied and as she left she said, "you have a good heart. you are a good human."
The bar/club was closing soon and my friends were already headed to another bar to drink some port-wine! Love that stuff but gives headache next day! Worth it though.
Girl 3: We are sitting and playing some dice. Suddenly a blonde ask us if her and her male friend could join us. I said sure immediately. Usually I'm very slow at that. When they sat and I got a good look on the blonde I was stunned.
She introduced herself and I gave her a compliment immediately in front of everyone which I usually don't do.
This woman was the most beautiful woman I've seen since I can't remember. She stole my heart by her exuding femininity and the way she looked. She must have been around late 20's start 30's.
I couldn't keep myself away from her either. Shit. I was exuding desire for her when we interacted. She told me she was seeing this French guy, who she met while she was in Taiwan doing work. I really didn't listen to much of what she said because it didn't matter.
Anyways she was going home and I just saw the beginning of "Spread" before I went out, it went something like this:
me: "you are going home, alone?"
her: "yes"
me: "that must be lonely!"
her: "nono, I live two girls [little details about the girls]
me: "let me follow you home"
Can't remember what happened. I hugged her gave her a kiss on the chin and she gave me one too.
I was persistent but I could have been more persistent. Actually with all the three girls, I'm sure something more would have happened if I kept going.
Damn, this girl was heartbreaking... if every woman was like her heaven would be on earth!
All in all, an awesome, f***ing great night!
If you have any suggestions on my experiences, please let me know. It's always interesting to see a more experienced persons perspective on this stuff!
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
