02-22-2013, 07:53 PM
So I went to the hypnotherapist today. She wasn't straight hypnosis. She had a whole mixed bag of techniques and strategies. I liked her. She was very laid back and understanding.
I had a lot of anxiety going into the session. So I felt very defensive I guess. And I feel that I put up a lot of resistance. But she was able to see that and switch up how she did things. She read me very well, which made me feel she was very qualified. I liked how she knew how to not preoccupy my time with excessive talk about the past, she understood that they were just patterns in my head that could be retrained.
I feel like most people would be really excited to go and fix everything. But I was mostly worried. I didn't want to go into the session and start to pretend that things were better when they really weren't. It's like I wanted real solid change, not some vague feeling of being better just from relaxation or something.
From one session I feel like she did cause some changes. The big one was looking for a job. Even just looking for a job caused me anxiety, but she helped me drop that from about a 10 to a 5. But also she subtly helped me see a life beyond the anxiety and helped me reframe it in a way where I could feel myself being able to move past it.
She wanted to do another session with me. But I don't have the money right now. If I did, I'd go again. I felt like she understood what needed to be done and she would have worked on it even more.
I'm not really disappointed with how things turned out. I think she helped me move forward even more. I've already accepted that I'm a guy with a lot of issues. And as nice as it would be to fix everything in a day, sometimes it's not really doable. It's like chipping away at something, that's all you can ever really do is keep chipping away.
I had a lot of anxiety going into the session. So I felt very defensive I guess. And I feel that I put up a lot of resistance. But she was able to see that and switch up how she did things. She read me very well, which made me feel she was very qualified. I liked how she knew how to not preoccupy my time with excessive talk about the past, she understood that they were just patterns in my head that could be retrained.
I feel like most people would be really excited to go and fix everything. But I was mostly worried. I didn't want to go into the session and start to pretend that things were better when they really weren't. It's like I wanted real solid change, not some vague feeling of being better just from relaxation or something.
From one session I feel like she did cause some changes. The big one was looking for a job. Even just looking for a job caused me anxiety, but she helped me drop that from about a 10 to a 5. But also she subtly helped me see a life beyond the anxiety and helped me reframe it in a way where I could feel myself being able to move past it.
She wanted to do another session with me. But I don't have the money right now. If I did, I'd go again. I felt like she understood what needed to be done and she would have worked on it even more.
I'm not really disappointed with how things turned out. I think she helped me move forward even more. I've already accepted that I'm a guy with a lot of issues. And as nice as it would be to fix everything in a day, sometimes it's not really doable. It's like chipping away at something, that's all you can ever really do is keep chipping away.
