02-17-2013, 12:58 PM
Stage 3 - Day 16,
I'm very grounded. It does lead to not showing up sometimes. I'm very non-reaction seeking but I still have conflicts with it.
In situations where I've been stagnant and when I sense that I want that girls attention or "She's cute but..." I think "am I reaction seeking?"
The feeling is like, if I say something here am I seeking a reaction?
That's when I have been chilling in the same space for some time that I get these senses and thoughts.
When I think about it, the most natural reason must be a sense of not feeling like I am enough. But what I really think it is, is that I fear that I am trying too hard - even though I try very little or none most of the time. Then I just block it out and keep myself passive and it's fine.
Anyways, besides that dilemma, when I speak, I speak like I am very sure of myself. A woman told me, "you sound like you are very sure of what you are saying"
I feel like I can be very honest with girls I have just met to an extent.
I've noticed I am also very creative when a girl and I am comfortable with each other and there's attraction.
I had one of these nights where I got pretty drunk with a buddy and I lost my grounding and my own sense of reality. In the start I was on fire but after a while I got rejections after rejections. I do think rejections affect me less and less each time I get rejected.
The next night I am in totally chill mode. This made me look more real and easy to approach.
The following week is going to blow up!!!!
I'm very grounded. It does lead to not showing up sometimes. I'm very non-reaction seeking but I still have conflicts with it.
In situations where I've been stagnant and when I sense that I want that girls attention or "She's cute but..." I think "am I reaction seeking?"
The feeling is like, if I say something here am I seeking a reaction?
That's when I have been chilling in the same space for some time that I get these senses and thoughts.
When I think about it, the most natural reason must be a sense of not feeling like I am enough. But what I really think it is, is that I fear that I am trying too hard - even though I try very little or none most of the time. Then I just block it out and keep myself passive and it's fine.
Anyways, besides that dilemma, when I speak, I speak like I am very sure of myself. A woman told me, "you sound like you are very sure of what you are saying"
I feel like I can be very honest with girls I have just met to an extent.
I've noticed I am also very creative when a girl and I am comfortable with each other and there's attraction.
I had one of these nights where I got pretty drunk with a buddy and I lost my grounding and my own sense of reality. In the start I was on fire but after a while I got rejections after rejections. I do think rejections affect me less and less each time I get rejected.
The next night I am in totally chill mode. This made me look more real and easy to approach.
The following week is going to blow up!!!!
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
