Overcome Fear, Guilt, and Shame

[mat422]

I think I might be starting to understand how my depression works a lot of the time. I've got my baseline level which isn't as severe. It still messes with my head and makes things difficult. This is the part that I feel is subconscious, I feel it, but I have trouble tying it to anything. This is what tends to wear me down. However, if I fall into the trap of negative thinking I can drag myself down even further. Recently I've been able to keep that persistent negative thinking at bay, but it only serves to stabilize me enough so things don't get worse.

I'm going to be visiting a hypnotherapist soon. I'll see if she can help me with a lot of this stuff. I have a feeling it's tied very strongly to my social anxiety. In life you have to interact with people, and when anxiety makes that incredibly difficult it makes life seem incredibly difficult.

I'm pretty optimistic about it. Although I am worried I'll come back from it unchanged. But these past few days I feel like I've really let go of that fear of the unknown. I want to change because I know the change will make me happy and that overrides my fear that wants to hold me in place.