Roy's Alpha Male Journal

[Majordomus]

It seems I react less to people around me.I think I talking slower lately.More
indifferent to stuff.And less thinking about stuff in my head.More present
and noticing the senses without labeling.It's like things are fresh and I'm noticing them.

I'm thinking about my life in if what I'm doing now is really what I want to do
with them.I like a lot less lately doing what other people are telling me.

I often get sort of feeling of mental overload.Like my brain is processing a lot
of stuff.

Stage 1 is definitely negativity removal stage.Last evening was pretty horrible.It was the mental feeling of overload and sort of horror,strong one.That came with more unpleasant memories coming back to mind.It was gone after a while.
Long exercise and stretching helped.

I guess a lot of my past memories don't get along very well with the new programming from the alpha set.

I know perfectly what you are talking about.
Sometimes one has this feeling as if thousand little dwarfs argued in his head.
Anxiety and stuff comes too.