08-17-2010, 10:15 AM
Quote:Another thing was this girl that I used to be very close to called me today. We had a very close relationship but nothing ever happened sexually because I was put off by her ways. The thing is, I always used to have feelings for her but now I feel extremely cold towards her emotionally. In fact, I feel cold toward women in general, but not in a "I hate you" way, more of in a "I don't need to rely on you" way.
This is true liberation. Aloofness for the win. For me, my point of detachment was to do with drama. Drama has a way of sucking people in like a vortex of energy. I was totally blinded to the amount of ugliness this kind of drama creates and how utterly unappealing, almost disgusting, I now find this kind of childish, manipulative, slimy behaviour that I previously simply could not see. Flaws in women I used to be very, very attracted to just popped out at me, and this killed all the attraction dead and left it in the past. Meanwhile I looked towards the future.
You are responding to Stage 1 in the exact same manor I did: aloofness towards women, seeing my dad in a different manor (this changed again later on), independence in general. This makes me think you are going to see very similar changes to the changes I saw right the way through the set.
“To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful.” - Carl Jung
