12-06-2012, 01:00 PM
Once again, thanks a lot for the suggestions. I'll definitely be more considerate of the cute girls I'm going to meet in the future...
Stage 1 - Day 13,
I have felt very disturbed yesterday and today. I think it is because lately I haven't been thinking/focusing on my goals but just enjoyed the moment and relaxed.. kinda drifting in my own world of moments.
It may also be the fact that the girls I've met went bad and I must have had some "highs", subconsciously, from them wanting to be with me and now when they don't want to see me I feel a bit down.
I got myself another lesson, women are very fragile/touchy to the sex topic. I made a slight insinuation for sex with the 26y old and she replied back with something more sexual but next morning she wrote a goodbye text, that she may have set our hangout at her place for more than she wants.
Today I just didn't feel it. Not like last week and the beginning of this where my gratitude shined through and people looked at me everywhere.
I did put a smirk on my face and was grateful but I didn't feel it from my heart.. it was a bit fake but I wouldn't want myself to slouch down and look like someone who was sorry for his life. I was also very vulnerable today...
I am having one of these days where I'm lost and with no sense of direction or purpose. Somewhere in my head it tells me, "go out and meet women tonight" but I really, really do not feel like it at all.
I was also planning to go to some crossfit yesterday and today after school but I just slept over and didn't want to go at all.
The shortest and best way I can describe it is, my joie de vivre is non-exsistant...
This is something I experience sometimes and it makes me think that I am an unstable person :S (before in time I would play video-games or watch a movie to forget about this absurdity but after have stopped playing + being on WM, I have no excitement in doing it again)
It might be the fact that, my father never showed me a way of living and he never learned me anything. Though he is very kind to me and never really asked me for something.
I better sleep on it, even though I feel I am already assuming that it wont help. I need some kind of purpose I find purposeful or else I will wander in thick clouds...
Stage 1 - Day 13,
I have felt very disturbed yesterday and today. I think it is because lately I haven't been thinking/focusing on my goals but just enjoyed the moment and relaxed.. kinda drifting in my own world of moments.
It may also be the fact that the girls I've met went bad and I must have had some "highs", subconsciously, from them wanting to be with me and now when they don't want to see me I feel a bit down.
I got myself another lesson, women are very fragile/touchy to the sex topic. I made a slight insinuation for sex with the 26y old and she replied back with something more sexual but next morning she wrote a goodbye text, that she may have set our hangout at her place for more than she wants.
Today I just didn't feel it. Not like last week and the beginning of this where my gratitude shined through and people looked at me everywhere.
I did put a smirk on my face and was grateful but I didn't feel it from my heart.. it was a bit fake but I wouldn't want myself to slouch down and look like someone who was sorry for his life. I was also very vulnerable today...
I am having one of these days where I'm lost and with no sense of direction or purpose. Somewhere in my head it tells me, "go out and meet women tonight" but I really, really do not feel like it at all.
I was also planning to go to some crossfit yesterday and today after school but I just slept over and didn't want to go at all.
The shortest and best way I can describe it is, my joie de vivre is non-exsistant...
This is something I experience sometimes and it makes me think that I am an unstable person :S (before in time I would play video-games or watch a movie to forget about this absurdity but after have stopped playing + being on WM, I have no excitement in doing it again)
It might be the fact that, my father never showed me a way of living and he never learned me anything. Though he is very kind to me and never really asked me for something.
I better sleep on it, even though I feel I am already assuming that it wont help. I need some kind of purpose I find purposeful or else I will wander in thick clouds...
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
