12-02-2012, 09:36 AM
Okay I'm 3 months in with Absolute Self Confidence 5th Generation.
It's like me head and whole self is tormenting me every day. Even upon waking up heavy resistance is upon me. Feelings of neediness towards women and my inability to get a girl ever since I was born always came striking at me at moments unnoticed.
From time to time, I decided to view inspirational and motivational pictures and videos just to get my mood up. It has always been like this every time I start making progress. When I do, I slack off and rarely go out because I feel I have enough time to socialize and improve myself which isn't the case.
I did have some significant improvements. First off, this is for you Sean (lol), I finally were able to do approaches towards women. My two latest approaches at the bar whom I went was totally awful. I was shot down instantly. I felt it. But looking back, it isn't as bad as I think it is. And it is at the club so I don't feel much affected.
Last week however, I tried my best to talk to a girl who brought at my sister's store. Needless to say, I kind of flirted with her but only subtle and even laugh at my jokes. I also talked with her two friends just so they don't feel awkward. As always, I'm surprised how easily I was able to do it. She's only 20 and I'm kind of minding the age gap (25 here). In the end, I got her facebook account. The only problem was when I searched her facebook account using the email she gave me, I couldn't find it. Her email as it turns out was unsearchable and the only thing I did was send her a facebook invite. One of my friends told me to send her an email but I still haven't done it. I felt sad and stupid for getting her email instead of her number. It was a good learning experience after all. But for me to sum up another courage to approach a girl on daytime means a lot again.
I do want to be good at this and enjoy socializing with people especially with the opposite sex. But as I said, the biggest thing pulling me down is that I give in to my negative temptations like instead of going out I will just stay at home and masturbate to porn. I've had it with this lifestyle and want to change this habit for years. But I keep on failing on going back to this shitty routine.
It's like me head and whole self is tormenting me every day. Even upon waking up heavy resistance is upon me. Feelings of neediness towards women and my inability to get a girl ever since I was born always came striking at me at moments unnoticed.
From time to time, I decided to view inspirational and motivational pictures and videos just to get my mood up. It has always been like this every time I start making progress. When I do, I slack off and rarely go out because I feel I have enough time to socialize and improve myself which isn't the case.
I did have some significant improvements. First off, this is for you Sean (lol), I finally were able to do approaches towards women. My two latest approaches at the bar whom I went was totally awful. I was shot down instantly. I felt it. But looking back, it isn't as bad as I think it is. And it is at the club so I don't feel much affected.
Last week however, I tried my best to talk to a girl who brought at my sister's store. Needless to say, I kind of flirted with her but only subtle and even laugh at my jokes. I also talked with her two friends just so they don't feel awkward. As always, I'm surprised how easily I was able to do it. She's only 20 and I'm kind of minding the age gap (25 here). In the end, I got her facebook account. The only problem was when I searched her facebook account using the email she gave me, I couldn't find it. Her email as it turns out was unsearchable and the only thing I did was send her a facebook invite. One of my friends told me to send her an email but I still haven't done it. I felt sad and stupid for getting her email instead of her number. It was a good learning experience after all. But for me to sum up another courage to approach a girl on daytime means a lot again.
I do want to be good at this and enjoy socializing with people especially with the opposite sex. But as I said, the biggest thing pulling me down is that I give in to my negative temptations like instead of going out I will just stay at home and masturbate to porn. I've had it with this lifestyle and want to change this habit for years. But I keep on failing on going back to this shitty routine.
"Nothing in the world can take the place of Persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent."
