10-20-2012, 08:02 AM
(10-20-2012, 07:10 AM)Sean Wrote: The rough patches need not coincide with the school antics. I predict that as AM progresses, you'll be less reactive to the school's antics, and more philosophical about it. You know it's coming, so you need not react. Just expect it, and accept it.
It's a little bit difficult when they EXCEED expectation every time. I am a pessimist by nature, but once I've evaluated a "what's the worst that could happen" I can generally dismiss it and feel better. "Going with the flow", and not mentally preparing myself tends to invite disaster for me. It's kind of like "naming a demon", once it has a name it can be controlled.
However, these MF'ers go with my worst case scenario each time. I say to myself "what's the worst? Aaah, they'd never do that." And then they do. And then they turn around and try to act like they're not f@(&ing us. The tactics eerily match those used by abusive partners in relationships to isolate and control their victims. "You're imagining that." That sort of stuff.
No way in hell any of us would put up with these things in a personal relationship dynamic. If AM works the way it's supposed to, it would force the listener to junk that relationship, and take no prisoners.
On an institutional level though these things are harder to deal with, and they've got us over a barrel. If I jump ship now, and take my money elsewhere it's another 3 years most likely to my degree. (I've got between 1.5 to 2 more years to go, provided that they don't screw with our schedule. Again.) If I switch programs, and stay at this institution I might be adding another half year and $10,000, but I'll also have to eat my heart out every day that I'm doing something I don't want to do, with people I'd rather see impaled and roasted alive. The danger if I stay the course is that they'll never let us graduate and try to block us professionally.
...wah wah boo hoo. I will adapt and overcome, regroup and return from a position of strength to annihilate the opposition.
Dumb bastards.
I almost feel sorry for them.
