Stage 2, Day 19,
Noticing that my standards are increasing, and I'm not quite in the position - calendar wise - to work to fulfill them.
I have a musical theater commitment that will occupy a lot of my time until Halloween.
After that, I'll have a 5-6 month window where I can pursue business and money.
I'm interested in learning about the lives and habits of great men such as Napoleon, Theodore Roosevelt, and Julius Caesar.
I'm viewing my current habits and goal fulfillment as preparation for some great role not yet revealed to me.
As a negative, I'm finding that my psyche is disengaged from the things that I want: community, a friend group, relating with new women, connection.
The 'disassociating from reality' is steady but not overwhelming. I think that this - and the above - are another form of disequilibration during Stage 2 that will be balanced out later. It seems that I first need to have a few primers of outcome independence before I'm pushed towards deep integration.
Noticing that my standards are increasing, and I'm not quite in the position - calendar wise - to work to fulfill them.
I have a musical theater commitment that will occupy a lot of my time until Halloween.
After that, I'll have a 5-6 month window where I can pursue business and money.
I'm interested in learning about the lives and habits of great men such as Napoleon, Theodore Roosevelt, and Julius Caesar.
I'm viewing my current habits and goal fulfillment as preparation for some great role not yet revealed to me.
As a negative, I'm finding that my psyche is disengaged from the things that I want: community, a friend group, relating with new women, connection.
The 'disassociating from reality' is steady but not overwhelming. I think that this - and the above - are another form of disequilibration during Stage 2 that will be balanced out later. It seems that I first need to have a few primers of outcome independence before I'm pushed towards deep integration.
