02-21-2026, 05:26 AM
This program and me are going to become really good friends, methinks!
Right now I've spent several hours working out, cleaning up a little and working through self-blame, which is my kneejerk reaction whenever someone/something triggers or even induces a neurosis in me (and as they're intertwined, it might look a bit like CPTSD even).
Anyway, the tricky thing is that my perception of manly manliness is taking responsibility for your actions/choices and - more than that - your mistakes.
But making a mistake, a bad choice, even several - this should not result in a traumatic neurosis, I think. So that one's not on me.
I'm feeling energized to do things. I do not feel like playing Diablo II, lol, nor watching a TV show, I want some *action*, preferrably moneymaking, singing-related or woman-related, heheh. Trouble is, things have been slow in recent times. I did not mind as much while PRAing, but I do apparently mind while Stage 0ing. It's also why I got tired of PRA solo - it made me focused on healing to the detriment of other things.
I will not be doing a daily countdown for this one, though I may be posting here a lot anyway, because it was mainly a motivation tool for myself to stick to PRA for as long as I could hold out. On this program - I don't think it'll be a problem. I'll just do a monthly coiuntdown or so, starting from March 1st, as planned.
Right now I've spent several hours working out, cleaning up a little and working through self-blame, which is my kneejerk reaction whenever someone/something triggers or even induces a neurosis in me (and as they're intertwined, it might look a bit like CPTSD even).
Anyway, the tricky thing is that my perception of manly manliness is taking responsibility for your actions/choices and - more than that - your mistakes.
But making a mistake, a bad choice, even several - this should not result in a traumatic neurosis, I think. So that one's not on me.
I'm feeling energized to do things. I do not feel like playing Diablo II, lol, nor watching a TV show, I want some *action*, preferrably moneymaking, singing-related or woman-related, heheh. Trouble is, things have been slow in recent times. I did not mind as much while PRAing, but I do apparently mind while Stage 0ing. It's also why I got tired of PRA solo - it made me focused on healing to the detriment of other things.
I will not be doing a daily countdown for this one, though I may be posting here a lot anyway, because it was mainly a motivation tool for myself to stick to PRA for as long as I could hold out. On this program - I don't think it'll be a problem. I'll just do a monthly coiuntdown or so, starting from March 1st, as planned.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
