Yesterday, 01:53 PM
Alright, it’s now been a year on 6G subs. I did 6 months on OSC, 4 months on E7, and 2 months on PRAv1, in addition to many other programs before 6G. It wasn’t until 6G that it felt like they were able to help me actually break through issues, instead of just trigger the issue without any kind of resolution. The first 10 months of 6G were hell. I was right up close and personal with all kinds of negative beliefs about myself. In those moments, those things felt true and unsolvable. Things like “I’m a piece of shit” or “I hate myself” “I’m a weird person,” etc. I had a huge breakthrough near the end of my E7 run with the help of some breath work and body work therapy that has made a lasting and significant change for the better.
As far as AM7, I’m definitely a stage 0 needer lol.
My living situation needs an upgrade.
My work/income source needs an upgrade aka starting my own business which I have been putting off for a long time but have started to take some small steps in that direction in the last couple months.
I consciously reject the feminist stuff but I know there’s some social programming I have taken on at some point. One of the beliefs is not that women don’t want attention/sex etc, it’s that they don’t want that specifically from me, and any evidence to the contrary that I have ever had has only been true in those specific instances and hasn’t changed the overall belief (ie. “ ok that woman wanted me in that situation but still, no other women want me”) Also there’s beliefs that I can only make any kind of move once I already know they’re interested, and it takes a level of explicitness in that interest from them for me to realize they’re interested and then things can happen. At various times I have thought I was maybe on the spectrum, but I think it’s more just fear and blockages and lack of social skills. And fear of women is tied in there as well. Some of it is general social anxiety and I have been a shut in at worse times in the past. The anxiety is magnified with women and the more attractive she is or closer to potential relationship material the more the anxiety.
I do hide from a lot of adult responsibility and have issues with permission seeking. There are definitely traumas, some of which I know what they are, that have prevented me from stepping into my full adulthood and masculinity. I have worked through some of them partially over the years, but it’s time to get through the rest.
I have so far run stage 0 for 3 nights at bedtime. I can feel it working on the blocked areas in my energy body and moving things more so than on any sub so far. Some of that is that the channels, so to speak, are more open now than in the past due to all of the work I’ve done, but this also feels more direct and impactful in my body than even PRA felt when using that up until a week ago.
I’m travelling right now. Yesterday I found myself wishing I could connect with people and meet new people without the anxiety and the constraints I’ve put on myself.
I’m looking forward the the months ahead with this program. I’m know that I’m moving on to much better things.
As far as AM7, I’m definitely a stage 0 needer lol.
My living situation needs an upgrade.
My work/income source needs an upgrade aka starting my own business which I have been putting off for a long time but have started to take some small steps in that direction in the last couple months.
I consciously reject the feminist stuff but I know there’s some social programming I have taken on at some point. One of the beliefs is not that women don’t want attention/sex etc, it’s that they don’t want that specifically from me, and any evidence to the contrary that I have ever had has only been true in those specific instances and hasn’t changed the overall belief (ie. “ ok that woman wanted me in that situation but still, no other women want me”) Also there’s beliefs that I can only make any kind of move once I already know they’re interested, and it takes a level of explicitness in that interest from them for me to realize they’re interested and then things can happen. At various times I have thought I was maybe on the spectrum, but I think it’s more just fear and blockages and lack of social skills. And fear of women is tied in there as well. Some of it is general social anxiety and I have been a shut in at worse times in the past. The anxiety is magnified with women and the more attractive she is or closer to potential relationship material the more the anxiety.
I do hide from a lot of adult responsibility and have issues with permission seeking. There are definitely traumas, some of which I know what they are, that have prevented me from stepping into my full adulthood and masculinity. I have worked through some of them partially over the years, but it’s time to get through the rest.
I have so far run stage 0 for 3 nights at bedtime. I can feel it working on the blocked areas in my energy body and moving things more so than on any sub so far. Some of that is that the channels, so to speak, are more open now than in the past due to all of the work I’ve done, but this also feels more direct and impactful in my body than even PRA felt when using that up until a week ago.
I’m travelling right now. Yesterday I found myself wishing I could connect with people and meet new people without the anxiety and the constraints I’ve put on myself.
I’m looking forward the the months ahead with this program. I’m know that I’m moving on to much better things.
