03-26-2025, 02:40 PM
Had a dream last night that I was out with a friend that I haven't really talked to in over a year now, mainly due to him not really being the type of person I want to associate with anymore. I don't remember all of the details of the dream, but it ended with me eventually just saying goodbye and walking away once and for all. When I woke up I do remember saying it really validated my decision to have nothing to do with this person anymore in my life.
Today will be the 4th day On for this cycle, and I felt amazing. Yesterday there was a bout of anxiety and not wanting to talk in front of a group, but today that all changed. When had a team meeting with two people that report to me, the confidence was there and I was back to speaking with authority like I was on OSC. Brain fog and level of exhaustion went away today as well. One thing that I always feared as a leader of a department is saying something that will make people unhappy and will change the dynamic, even if what I'm saying is justified and there's good reason to make changes. That's gone. Not to say I don't care how people react or what people think about the changes, it's more of I'm not afraid to make changes or tell people what they can or can't do.
Things are definitely ramping up and changing.
Today will be the 4th day On for this cycle, and I felt amazing. Yesterday there was a bout of anxiety and not wanting to talk in front of a group, but today that all changed. When had a team meeting with two people that report to me, the confidence was there and I was back to speaking with authority like I was on OSC. Brain fog and level of exhaustion went away today as well. One thing that I always feared as a leader of a department is saying something that will make people unhappy and will change the dynamic, even if what I'm saying is justified and there's good reason to make changes. That's gone. Not to say I don't care how people react or what people think about the changes, it's more of I'm not afraid to make changes or tell people what they can or can't do.
Things are definitely ramping up and changing.
