Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 8

[DarthXedonias]

@Shannon Hey Shannon I haven't been around but came back and glad to see 6G is out. I will probably try it to see if its powerful enough now to deal with my certain issues. The reason I did come back was because I found out more about how I respond to things and thought by telling you you could probably improve on the subs a bit more (though I will try with 6G and see if that resolved the main issue I was having). I should say I was talking to a Veterans affairs Psychologist for a few months which helped diagnose me but also made me realize the extent of things. There were things like Anxiety disorder and depression disorder but those probably secondary to the main thing. I found out not that I have PTSD but I actually have Complex PTSD (or PTSD +) which is considered the most severe form of PTSD. This helped explained why over the years despite working on things I saw progress but the progress was very, very slow.

However I learned that a lot of that progress was being derailed by my toxic coping mechnism I had developed, an addiction in a way. Maladapative daydreaming. Basically from the way I was able to uncover things it seems like out of fear, shame, etc I broke myself into two parts practically. The reality facing part that barely does anything, doesn't have the charaistics I really want in life, and just does enough to survive and the inner "imaginary" part of myself that has all the characteristics and personality traits I want to express but gets to express them in this "safe" "imaginary" world where that part of me can express all those parts of myself safely with imaginary people that respond in the way I want them to. I believe its like part of me has totally hidden parts of myself into this imaginary version of myself because it deems those parts of myself "not safe" for expressing in the real world. This was probably due to the trauma but also the neglect and isolation in early life. I now know this is why things like Subliminals and hypnosis might have had minimal affect because since most of my identity is in that imaginary part of myself that means when it got suggestions it would just apply them to the imaginary version of myself instead of applying it to the "real life" version of myself.

I know you had something in the FRM I think to deal with simply "imagining" executing but maybe some of that was too vague for this level of "imagining". Though this seems like a mixture of Imagination and partly hiding most of yourself in this imaginary version of yourself to the point that you see most of your identity in this imaginary version instead of the real life verison of yourself. I thought I will post this here to help you out because maladaptive daydreaming seems to be a very, very common addiction and coping mechnism that some use as a response to trauma and fear. Some people use an addiction to alcohol, some use an addiction to drugs and in some case apparently some use an addiction to daydreaming to escape or cope with trauma. Anyway, I hope this gives you some insight or maybe it might help you with the production of the subliminals a bit more to cut off even more a potential issue for some who might want to try your subliminals. I will try OGSF within a few days to see if maybe the adjustment in power will overcome this issue anyway and I will probably let you know if that is the case.