Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 8

[Inconceivablezen]

They have you follow a vegan diet a week before the ceremony. No, I didn’t go on a retreat. It was just a one night thing. You have to set an intention before you take it. I asked the medicine to show me any traumas that were making me stutter/help me heal whatever was making me stutter.

No, Ayahuasca is mostly DMT and another compound that makes it last longer.

Look into it and if you think that it’s for you, give it a shot. I am obviously happy to answer any questions you may have.

Same here! Have extremely good results with psilocybin that helped me identify some childhood trauma I didn't know I had. Life-changing experience. But never tried Aya! Did psilocybin by myself. I could see that perfectionism was/is really self-destructive because, at best, you feel great for 1 day after a good conquest and then need to hop onto the next accomplishment. I still remember the day I completed 3 Master degrees at the same time, was done with the final presentation, and felt empty inside. Barely even celebrated that moment. Next thing you know, the mind was focused on the next accomplishment. Very self-destructure because all these accomplishments don't mean anything if you don't feel good about them.

Don't get me wrong, in a way the childhood trauma did HELP me in ways too, making me really ambitious and helping me accomplish a lot, but not from a good place. Always from a place of lack that needs to be filled to be able to feel whole. Psilocybin also helped me identify some self-destructive behaviors in myself - some others that I haven't even described here.

Don't get me wrong, my life is amazing. But psilocybin helped me a lot. And, many of the RCTs on psilocybin, whether anxiety or PTSD or addiction or depression, are quite mind-boggling in a good way. Nevertheless, I do think that the average person should use psilocybin under medical supervision, with the protocol as it's described in these medical studies.

But, yeah, now I understand why I'm somewhat different than other people. Other people who are content with a "standard life" - a house, a spouse, a dog, some kids, etc! My younger brothers and sister are like that. After psilocybin, I'd say my self-destructive habits are down 70% or so. Not fully there yet but I'll overcome them soon, it feels like inevitable.

Running both OF, OGSF, and Maverick in the last few years has helped me a lot during this process, and synergistically even, I think.

Edit: hope this helps Shannon. If not, I'll delete! Ask any question you want as well and I'm happy to answer.