09-01-2024, 03:59 PM
Day 19,
I was about 10 minutes through my phone call with my parents when it hit me that I'm really behind the 8-ball in my life.
Yes, I'm making fast progress in the things that I'm prioritizing, but I don't really share those things with my parents because they've always given me mixed reactions.
But by the metrics that my peers and colleagues are pushing, I'm not hitting them.
My otherwise good self-esteem was shot and I couldn't help but notice all the ways that I'm not accomplished in life, at least by the results themselves.
No desire for a wife, no desire for a typical 9 to 5, not making the money I want to make (money is something which I do care about).
My choice to cut back my salary in medicine for a new career path I'm supercharged about (tech) is wearing on me, and for some reason I don't want to get a new tech job and upheave my life, especially if it means that I need to move and start paying 500-700 dollars more in rent every month, increase my commute, etc.
I'm hoping that this sick feeling transmutes into discontentment toward anything holding me back from my goals.
I was about 10 minutes through my phone call with my parents when it hit me that I'm really behind the 8-ball in my life.
Yes, I'm making fast progress in the things that I'm prioritizing, but I don't really share those things with my parents because they've always given me mixed reactions.
But by the metrics that my peers and colleagues are pushing, I'm not hitting them.
My otherwise good self-esteem was shot and I couldn't help but notice all the ways that I'm not accomplished in life, at least by the results themselves.
No desire for a wife, no desire for a typical 9 to 5, not making the money I want to make (money is something which I do care about).
My choice to cut back my salary in medicine for a new career path I'm supercharged about (tech) is wearing on me, and for some reason I don't want to get a new tech job and upheave my life, especially if it means that I need to move and start paying 500-700 dollars more in rent every month, increase my commute, etc.
I'm hoping that this sick feeling transmutes into discontentment toward anything holding me back from my goals.
UMS v2 Journal (current) || Overcoming Fear 5.75G Journal
