Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 8

[callie]

I don't have professional help, haven’t had much success with it before. I am going to look for a therapist soon enough, though

As for the dream example I gave you, those kinds of dreams almost only happen when I use ultrasonic for too long

What really bothers me is that ever since something in my subconscious shut down after using OGSFv1, no subliminal has worked the way they used to. Given the current state of my subconscious, I think the instructions might not be a good fit for me with E6. By the fifth day of listening, it starts to feel like too much. Going into the rest days, I’m either in a state of resistance or feel over-pressurized, depending on which format I use. Perhaps subliminals aren’t for me anymore, as you pointed out, or maybe I just need to tweak my listening patterns to better suit me. Reducing the days ON to 4 instead of 5 comes to mind. Do you think that’s worth a try?

I've noticed a pattern with you, and please feel free to correct me if I am wrong, but it seems to me that you tend to resist so hard that you conclude that you should use it less and less and use the most gentle settings trying to make it work, that it ends up failing because there's not enough to make it work.  Has that been your experience so far?  Or am I mis-remembering?

I suggested professional help because of this.  If the pattern above is correct, then what you're doing is resisting by making it too painful to achieve the necessary change, and self sabotaging to protect what's causing the issues you're trying to solve.  It is a cycle that will always end the same way if you don't change something.

Since I'm not a licensed psychiatrist or psychologist, and I cannot spend the time necessary to try to fully understand your unique challenge here regardless, a professional source of help is your best bet.  It does not surprise me that you haven't had much success with it before, because quite frankly, the entire field of psychology is a bit of a mess right now.  But that doesn't mean you should give up.  It means you just need to keep looking for the right therapist, psychologist, psychiatrist, hypnotherapist, NLP specialist or other practitioner, and right approach.

Given what I have seen, I suggest you aim for in-person consultation, diagnosis and therapy.

Now then, if what I said at the top is not correct, then that laves us with some options for trying to find a way forward with subliminals still.

So it comes down to... are you in a repeating cycle of subconsciously self sabotaging when you try to use subliminals to help yourself?

Yes, I see why you would think that. I’m aware of this pattern too, and in the past I think that has definitely been self sabotage. However, over time I’ve developed greater self-awareness. Now I can better distinguish between the kind of resistance I can overcome by increasing exposure, and a threshold that feels forced or too aggressive, which I've learned not to push past. With OFv4 and OGsfv1, I ignored that intuitive feeling and tried to push through it, which led to increasing dissociation, among other issues. I've noticed that during the second and third listening cycles of E6, by the fifth day things start to feel slightly forced, and deeper issues always seem to arise when I ignore that feeling by listening anyway. So, my decision to reduce to four days is simply based on these observations. Perhaps I’m wrong, although I don't think so. If you think I cannot overcome this without following the instructions to a tee, then I fully accept that subliminals are not for me and that I need focus on other solutions

I believe there could be a compromise in how I listen and still make it work. If I didn't believe this, I wouldn't keep reaching out to you with my concerns. I understand that I’m probably frustrating you by continually bringing up problems and also taking up valuable time from you and others. I apologize for that. I’m just very determined to resolve my issues at this point, even if it means pushing some boundaries. Lastly, I want to mention that I do have positive experiences too; sometimes I have days where I feel very good

I am going to try one more cycle and see how things go