Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 8

[Shannon]

I ask when it happens because it means something very different if it's happening when you use it after waking up vs before or while sleeping.

At this point, my best advice is that subliminals are not the right path for you, and that you need to seek professional psychological assistance to determine what your root issue(s) are and how best to deal with them.  I don't think self help is your best bet, given this response and your history.

I’m aware of what my root issues are, for the most part. They need to be addressed by helping me forgive myself and by grieving my past. That’s why I’m using E6 in the first place

I’m emotionally closed off. I’ve been that way since running OFv4 and OGSFv1. I don’t blame the subs, though - I ran them in ultrasonic, a format that has always felt too forcing for me, and I’ve never been able to stick with it long-term because the pacing is just too fast for me. I blame myself for ignoring my instincts and pushing forward despite the increasing dissociation. I should never have used E6 in ultrasonic to begin with 

Regarding your comment that subliminals might not be the right path for me, I have a question. When I decided to purchase a subscription to E6, I experienced wonderful TID the very next day - I felt at peace with myself, and everything felt so alive. If that can happen as TID, doesn’t that suggest it’s a possible outcome, since (correct me if I'm wrong) TID is essentially a glimpse of a 'future' self manifesting in your current timeline?

TID is an odd phenomenon that results from one of the modules, which causes you to experience the program's effects before you start using the program.

The ultrasonic being too fast paced - you must be dealing with a very, very early part of yourself if you think that.  The script is the same in all formats and the script instructs you to go at your own pace.  The only way ultrasonic at instructed volume could make you feel that is if some incredibly sensitive part of yourself perceived it as being too loud, too aggressive. 

I will spend some time looking at what format and volume would be best for you, but I'm a little slammed today.

While we wait, can you give me an overview of your experience with OGSF v1?