08-02-2024, 07:20 PM
Darn it, I could really use talking things through with someone right about now. 
I've been communicating as much as I can with as many people as were avaialable, over forums and with my new buddies on Discord, but I've got an avalanche of *thoughts* coming this way. I used to have it worse (probably one of the reasons I ended up with a psychotic episode - not enough people to talk to in confidence, about all aspects of my life, including subliminals and stuffies and thingies and traumas and others things - I do talk about them with my analyst, though. She's taken a bit of an interest even in this stuff!), so I'll probably cope, but it's tiresome TBH.
And it'll be at least 20-odd days before my analyst is back. Darn it!
Oh well. I have a party today where I'll end up meeting the people I confronted, and they seem chill for now, but we'll see. Probably this worry about the consequences of confronting - which I *have* to do, else I'll go *insane* again - even when I'm in the wrong (because you won't know until you confront, and even then you can't be really sure - it's word against word, perception against perception).
I've been communicating as much as I can with as many people as were avaialable, over forums and with my new buddies on Discord, but I've got an avalanche of *thoughts* coming this way. I used to have it worse (probably one of the reasons I ended up with a psychotic episode - not enough people to talk to in confidence, about all aspects of my life, including subliminals and stuffies and thingies and traumas and others things - I do talk about them with my analyst, though. She's taken a bit of an interest even in this stuff!), so I'll probably cope, but it's tiresome TBH.And it'll be at least 20-odd days before my analyst is back. Darn it!
Oh well. I have a party today where I'll end up meeting the people I confronted, and they seem chill for now, but we'll see. Probably this worry about the consequences of confronting - which I *have* to do, else I'll go *insane* again - even when I'm in the wrong (because you won't know until you confront, and even then you can't be really sure - it's word against word, perception against perception).
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
