Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 8

[Shannon]

I'm going do what needed until something is working I'm not here to quit.

But I'm don't know what to do.

AM6 again is not appealing and I'm not sure if E6 is the best route?
Again it's very confusing AM6 again might be enough OR it might not be and then I need to run E6 or OGSF

I don't see myself as a fearful man I was when I was a child and I'm not saying I have no fears or no blockages but for example I had a bit of social anxiety coming back on AM6 (something I didn't have for years) and it went away with SM3 (not that I'm a superman who is not fearful of anything but I'm sometimes too confident).

I am a very confident and willing to change and do things differently.
I'm sure however I had traumatic experiences when I was younger. So maybe E6 can help with that.
I'm also sure OGSF will help anyway and the new self improvement. But I don't want to do 10 different programs and jump from one to the next to the next to the next........
I still have a long way to be a successful man.

So by what you write here just running AM6 again after SM3 might be a very good option?

I've used stage 7 of AM6 for I think maybe a week or two I felt:
1 socially awkward
2 weird
3 that it would be better to do full run through than this because I need more time to fully take it in
4 that I should move to SM3 which would be the best option for me

I'm btw much more stable with SM3 than I was with the last stages of AM6
I felt unstable emotionally and not like myself (not confident weird and awkward) on the last stages of AM6 including 5 6 7

In stage 1-2-3 I felt the best and very confident indeed

Okay, so this gives us some clues about what the specific issues are.  By stages 4-5-7 of AM7, it's expecting you to be doing the more advanced stuff and expressing it.

If you can help me understand some things, I can guide you to the best option for the next run.  BUT!  Just because it isn't appealing doesn't mean you shouldn't do it.  If that's what you most need to work on, that's what is going to be what those parts of you that don't want to deal with it are least going to want to do.

It's good that on Stage 7, you realized you needed to run through all six stages again. 

Stability on SM3 so far may change as you get further, just like with AM6.  Later stages are more advanced stuff.

What I need to understand better to guide you from here is what would be your blockages.  It is most common when people have blockages with AM/SM that one of the following is true:

• They are raised in a very religious household where the religion is very strict regarding sex, and they're having trouble executing because they still live with their parents, and "being alpha" is going against their belief that they need to obey their parents.
  
• They are raised in a single parent household by a mother with no father and their mother used/uses guilt/shame/fear to control them, and is very much a believer in either feminism or "strong women", while overtly or covertly opposing strong masculinity in males.
  
• They are raised to be afraid of everything so they still need a parent (usually mom) to "save them".
  
• Their upbringing filled them with fear as a result of a fundamentalist religion, and they're terrified of committing some sort of act that will get them eternally punished.
  

Do any of these describe your situation?