Rock's X4A-1511 journal

[Shannon]

[quote="Diablojack00" pid='264401' dateline='1719158724']

I knew that she brought her sister cus she most likely didn't feel comfortable. Her twin was the one that always used to ask me what I was doing later.

I always told her what I was doing because I was interested in her sister.

I did fail. My friend from the Airforce came in and we ate at the restaurant and when I got there My crush was at the front desk but didn't acknowledge me. She then walked through the area by the kitchen out the other end and around behind where I waited for my friend but she went back the other way.

Another server told me both twins had just clocked out. So another server took me and my friend to a booth.

From that booth I could see the kitchen door. My crush stood there. I looked at her. She looked at me.

I expected her to come talk to me but she didn't.

She disappeared.

Her Twin on the other hand talked to me and I introduced her to my friend and she seemed like everything is normal.

I am sure now that my crush has something going on and it may or may not be me.

I never have gotten a reply from my crush in text. I only ever text her 3 times since April.

1st was so she'd have my number.

2nd was I asked her if she heard Taylor swift new album

3rd is when I'd asked her to a movie a few days ago.

I can agree I blew this. 

I am a terrible texter and I'm going to accept I failed.

It's best for me to just get another server and move on.

I've never tried to get with a restaurant server.

In hindsight I should have gone for the other twin though she has a boyfriend because at first she seemed more into me till my crush told her to quit trying to steal me.

I'm not saying both girls wanted me but it's a good possibility because of X4A-1511.

I will just request the other twin and just have her be my server. Move on with my life. Cus I definitely don't want to make anything worse.

I can ask my crush if I did something to make her feel uncomfortable but she's not gonna answer me.

So this is an example of what you're doing wrong.  Instead of trying to fix it, you're doom and gloom and running away.  Are you really that afraid of trying to communicate with her?  Is communication really this hard for you?  Making things worse is not very likely to matter at this point.  You're almost at the "worst".  Why wouldn't you try to make things better?  Communicate with her, dammit!

Okay that did sound doom and gloom. I'm usually not like that.

I'm not afraid of talking to her.

I'll talk to her and see if things can be fixed.

You need to understand what her point of view is and how it differs from yours.  She needs to understand your point of view.  Clear up whatever misunderstandings there are.