09-16-2012, 10:32 AM
It's been a while so I wanted to give an update.
Stage 2:
In stage one I found myself getting annoyed with people because of stupid and annoying behavior but in stage 2 it transitioned into getting annoyed over pretty much everything. It seemed like I went into grumpy old man mode.
I became a hermit and rarely went out with my friends. I had an increased sense of taking care of responsibilities and spent a lot of my time working on my house.
Stage 3:
In this stage I seemed to smooth out a little and I didn't get annoyed nearly as much. I also started seeing a woman so not sure how much of it had to do with that or the subs.
The sense of responsibility stayed for this stage and I continued to do work on my house. I also stayed a hermit and never went out. The only time I would go out socially is with this woman or for a very occasional drink with a friend.
Throughout both stage 2 and stage 3:
I had an increased sense of wanting to do better at work and be more successful. I also noticed not caring as much about what people, think of me, but specifically with my family - old situations or feelings regarding my family. I found myself sort of letting go of that more and just saying "fuck it, it just doesn't matter in the bigger picture.
I also felt this constant nagging feeling of how unimportant we all are and how our egos make us think we are so important, when in reality, after we die, no one will remember us in 100 years. This sort of translates into a feeling of things are not such a big deal and what's important is to enjoy life now - theoretically at least. In reality I would say that I've enjoyed life other times far more than I do now. It's more this constant nagging concept that is always there when I see people around me.
This feeling was a constant in the last two months and I have no idea if it's the subs or just something I'm going through.
Stage 4
I'm now in stage 4. I'm about half way through. I've spent the last 3 months not socializing so I'm feeling ancy and want to get out more.
This woman I've been seeing has been acting super, super needy with me and it's been really annoying me. She's constantly texting and calling and I don't have the time for it, or the energy for that matter.
I haven't found that AM has done anything for me in the way of meeting or having fun experiences with women. Probably the opposite because I've been a hermit. Then again it's important to point out that I came into this as someone who did okay with women. So if someone comes in to this from ground zero he might have the opposite experience. I just being honest in my experience here.
I don't have much more to say on stage 4 because I'm not done with it yet.
At the end of this whole thing I'll try and summarize with a 20/20 hindsight view.
Out.
Stage 2:
In stage one I found myself getting annoyed with people because of stupid and annoying behavior but in stage 2 it transitioned into getting annoyed over pretty much everything. It seemed like I went into grumpy old man mode.
I became a hermit and rarely went out with my friends. I had an increased sense of taking care of responsibilities and spent a lot of my time working on my house.
Stage 3:
In this stage I seemed to smooth out a little and I didn't get annoyed nearly as much. I also started seeing a woman so not sure how much of it had to do with that or the subs.
The sense of responsibility stayed for this stage and I continued to do work on my house. I also stayed a hermit and never went out. The only time I would go out socially is with this woman or for a very occasional drink with a friend.
Throughout both stage 2 and stage 3:
I had an increased sense of wanting to do better at work and be more successful. I also noticed not caring as much about what people, think of me, but specifically with my family - old situations or feelings regarding my family. I found myself sort of letting go of that more and just saying "fuck it, it just doesn't matter in the bigger picture.
I also felt this constant nagging feeling of how unimportant we all are and how our egos make us think we are so important, when in reality, after we die, no one will remember us in 100 years. This sort of translates into a feeling of things are not such a big deal and what's important is to enjoy life now - theoretically at least. In reality I would say that I've enjoyed life other times far more than I do now. It's more this constant nagging concept that is always there when I see people around me.
This feeling was a constant in the last two months and I have no idea if it's the subs or just something I'm going through.
Stage 4
I'm now in stage 4. I'm about half way through. I've spent the last 3 months not socializing so I'm feeling ancy and want to get out more.
This woman I've been seeing has been acting super, super needy with me and it's been really annoying me. She's constantly texting and calling and I don't have the time for it, or the energy for that matter.
I haven't found that AM has done anything for me in the way of meeting or having fun experiences with women. Probably the opposite because I've been a hermit. Then again it's important to point out that I came into this as someone who did okay with women. So if someone comes in to this from ground zero he might have the opposite experience. I just being honest in my experience here.
I don't have much more to say on stage 4 because I'm not done with it yet.
At the end of this whole thing I'll try and summarize with a 20/20 hindsight view.
Out.
