Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 8

[Shannon]

Hey guys I'm back to discuss and talk here

Even though I felt I didn't get the support needed last time I'm here to put things behind and move forward with a smile.

I do understand Shannon tried his best to help

And Benjamin tried to keep things in order.



@Benjamin and @Shannon I hope we can move forward and start a new page.



Ok so I tried using BIATBW with AOS 6-8 hours each a day after 2 weeks I felt nothing was happening and felt some social anxiety coming up.

Women didn't act any different however on the first days 2 gay guys gave me too much attention at work Wtf?!

The combination of nothing from women, social anxiety and gay guys responding clearly indicates that you have a subconscious blockage regarding being attractive to women for some reason.  No response from women, but a response from gay men shows this, because you're not goiung to be worried about gay men since you're not interested in them.  The anxiety shows that the program goals are bringing up fear.  So you have a fauly belief somewhere in there creating fear and blockage regarding women.

I moved on with 7 days of AM6 refresher
I felt some of the results or attitudes I had came back but also the seriousness and heaviness of being a Alpha not relaxed it happy.
So it also meant unfortunately all the problems with women came back again.
Unwillingness to approach women and not all but some women for some reason don't seem to like me when I use AM6. I don't understand why and I've read other's journals saying the same thing. Like my alpha aura repeals most women at least the locals here. Some higher quality women not from the country and certainly women from work did get very attracted but in social situations it was hellish.
Maybe because they are too much trouble and manipulative? And I'm not willing to chase when I'm using AM6. So going out to clubs or bars with AM6 almost feels counterproductive and also unbearable!

This response to AM6 tells me you're trying to resist it, which I think we had established last time.  Your aura isn't repelling anyone; what's happening is that you're not being congruent with what the local women associate with alpha.  Parts of you are showing as alpha, and parts are not.  This tells her you're not alpha but makes her think you're trying to be, and she loses interest.  This happens when you're not done with the transformation to alpha, and is part of why we run AM multiple times.  If you're going to clubs and this state is counterproductive and unbearable, that just speaks to you needing to run AM again, and be less outcome dependent when you're at a club.

Then figured I finished the AM6 program less than 3 months ago which means I can start SM3 !

So for me it is time to start it. I've started SM3 few days ago.

I feel much more confident in my own skin and so much happier for some reason!

I didn't feel any of that on AM6(not taking anything away from the program but I do want to understand myself and the program better)

I don't even care about women now and my neediness is in check (it was with AM6 but now I also feel more relaxed for some reason and great!)

I didn't see any thing special with women but that's not the point! My self esteem is good.

And also I feel I get better opportunities in business like AM6 provided but I don't feel the stress I felt before!

Shannon did you put success attraction to SM3? I hope you did and it does feel like it!

Nope, there's no success attraction.  It's just raw unrepentant sexual alpha training.  Apparently, some part of you likes it.

I feel tired but it's like feeling Alpha and successful but also just calm and relaxed.

Even when I look at the world and nature feels so relaxing and good as well as life.

@Benjamin btw I had the first crazy crazy Zombie nightmare!!

That gives hints as to what your blockage is with AM6.  Which stage was hardest for you?