I know i still have emotional garbage and other issues but seriously i am having an urge to redo my life, forget about the past and move on into something else (i'm the kind of person that erases previous data before installing something else). since i have memory i always wanted to do my own stuff but just couldn't, that upset me pretty bad until today, if only i could have brought myself to break the rules before maybe things would be different but it's time to take responsability for my life instead of rotting and getting depressed, now here comes the difficult part for me and that is putting up the effort into making it happen (this is also a problem from before, pushing myself into doing stuff i don't give a damn made a number on my mind to the point of just wanting to do nothing, combined with low self esteem is pretty bad as well but i can't afford that anymore). Getting myself down seems like a luxury now.
This time i'm not hyped as when trauma makes me feel better just to get me down again, this time i'm getting ready and made up my mind even if it's painful.
This time i'm not hyped as when trauma makes me feel better just to get me down again, this time i'm getting ready and made up my mind even if it's painful.
