Rocks x4a-1000 Journal

[Diablojack00]

I agree. Definite gold here. Every time I say Do you wanna go on a date I either get turned down or it goes awful and I'm left thinking what the hell happened.

So today March 27 I went to eat and Morgan seemed more interested. I finished the first 5 days of x4a 1511 last night.

The hostess greeted me and told me to sit wherever I like and she'd get Morgan.

Morgan says Hey Rocky, How are you etc. She brought my drink and said there was a big party of people going sit in my area and asked if I wanted to move.

I said sure. She took me to the closed section where it was very quite. Only one guy sat in the back on a lap top.

Morgan said this was a secret place. So she kept asking how I was doing and I kept saying good how about you and she'd answer.

She kept coming back around kinda finessing things that Clearly didn't need it. 

At one point she sat down at a table across from me and said she was tired and she was hiding.

I said I wouldn't tell anyone and she said good cus it's a secret.

Another thing she did was stand at the table in front of me and sort of figeted withe the table while talking to me.

I did tell her something personal as she rang me up. That my grandmother is in the hospital and she has cancer.

She said That’s rough and she'd keep me in her thoughts.

I paid and asked how Maddy was. She said she didn't know cus she hadn't talked to her today.

She kept talking about something relevant and I thought it may be time to leave so I said I appreciate her and said cya.

I wanted to invite her to do something. It was strongly on my mind. 

I gotta deal with the very real possibility my grandmother may pass on soon.

Besides x4a 1511 probably needs more time to kick in.

So first of all, I'm saddened to hear that your grandmother isn't doing well, and that she has cancer.  That's very hard to handle.

That said, the results you describe above are very, very good and encouraging.  I am impressed.  She's letting you in on secrets, finding ways to be alone with you and showing signs of nervousness while alone with you.  Doesn't get much better than that.

But on the third hand, you are going to have to accept that if your grandmother passes, you will be in a state of grieving for a long time, and X4A isn't what you want to be running while you're grieving.  You'll need something more like E6.

If I may offer some advice I wish had been given to me when I had the chance still.... make sure you have said everything to your grandmother you want her to know before she goes, whether she goes soon or not.

Thank you very much. I really appreciate it. It definitely is hard to handle and I will purchase E6 when needed.

Morgan gathered a stack of cups reaching toward the ceiling. I sat down next to an older man named Earl.

Earl is a regular as well and we talk and tease Morgan sometimes.

Morgan walked by and I told Earl look she's the best server in the world. Earl agreed.

Morgan heard me and said Thank you.

 The restaurant was over crowded with 2 huge busses of people and Morgan wasn't able to be my server but she did talk to me as I walked toward the front and asked how I am and asked how was my Easter. I held 2 drinks to go but I opened my left arm for a hug with even thinking and Morgan came in and put her arm around me.

It was like a partial side hug but I didn't wanna spill the drink on her.

First hug so yay for that. I just went for the hug on auto pilot just knowing she'd reciprocate.

Of course I'm sure this was x4a 1511 executing. 

I generally don't hug people much.

Also Maddy was my server on good Friday. Morgan was off. Maddy is off work on Wednesday and I usually only go to the restaurant that day every week.

So Maddy talked to me but she stood right up on me and kinda behind me.

She did that 2 times when asking if I needed anything.

Maddy has always seemed more forward than Morgan.