Rocks x4a-1000 Journal

[Shannon]

I had to say
There are some jewels in this post!
It reminds me of a book I read which says that's the way to do things it does put less pressure on the girl and on you
Even though I know it I don't always do things this way myself so that's a very good reminder 
I've met some women myself on AM and I was too serious instead of casual
And now I've met more women so I can try to implement exactly that

I agree. Definite gold here. Every time I say Do you wanna go on a date I either get turned down or it goes awful and I'm left thinking what the hell happened.

So today March 27 I went to eat and Morgan seemed more interested. I finished the first 5 days of x4a 1511 last night.

The hostess greeted me and told me to sit wherever I like and she'd get Morgan.

Morgan says Hey Rocky, How are you etc. She brought my drink and said there was a big party of people going sit in my area and asked if I wanted to move.

I said sure. She took me to the closed section where it was very quite. Only one guy sat in the back on a lap top.

Morgan said this was a secret place. So she kept asking how I was doing and I kept saying good how about you and she'd answer.

She kept coming back around kinda finessing things that Clearly didn't need it. 

At one point she sat down at a table across from me and said she was tired and she was hiding.

I said I wouldn't tell anyone and she said good cus it's a secret.

Another thing she did was stand at the table in front of me and sort of figeted withe the table while talking to me.

I did tell her something personal as she rang me up. That my grandmother is in the hospital and she has cancer.

She said That’s rough and she'd keep me in her thoughts.

I paid and asked how Maddy was. She said she didn't know cus she hadn't talked to her today.

She kept talking about something relevant and I thought it may be time to leave so I said I appreciate her and said cya.

I wanted to invite her to do something. It was strongly on my mind. 

I gotta deal with the very real possibility my grandmother may pass on soon.

Besides x4a 1511 probably needs more time to kick in.

So first of all, I'm saddened to hear that your grandmother isn't doing well, and that she has cancer.  That's very hard to handle.

That said, the results you describe above are very, very good and encouraging.  I am impressed.  She's letting you in on secrets, finding ways to be alone with you and showing signs of nervousness while alone with you.  Doesn't get much better than that.

But on the third hand, you are going to have to accept that if your grandmother passes, you will be in a state of grieving for a long time, and X4A isn't what you want to be running while you're grieving.  You'll need something more like E6.

If I may offer some advice I wish had been given to me when I had the chance still.... make sure you have said everything to your grandmother you want her to know before she goes, whether she goes soon or not.