Magnus E6 Journal

[ncbeareatingman]

So was listening to OGSF for 5 months and while it helped me a large amount I still felt like something was missing. I could still feeling the pain of rejection down in my solar plexus area whenever someone I cared about would pull away along with other emotional issues.

So 5 days ago decided to make the switch to E6 to see if that could help me move further along. It was good timing to as I have recently quit vaping (was a smoker for 22 years and then switched to vaping) so now for the first time since I was sixteen have nothing that isn't fresh air going into my lungs.

To add to this started having relationship issues with my girlfriend 3 days ago so feeling a lot of stress right now so this sub is very much needed right now. What I noticed is no matter how much stress and emotional pain I'm feeling before it I always finish the 15 minutes feeling a lot more clear (part of me wants to listen every day but know the 5 days are important to take off). To early to tell what other effects this might have.

I'm hoping this will help me clear out the pain and trauma for bullying and loneliness when I was younger and also from past relationships. Ive never felt fully emotionally healthy and able to deal with things like others and have often been called sensitive or lacking emotional strength. I also know I have a lot of unhealthy coping patterns (eating, smoking used to be one, distraction etc) so I'm hoping I can work through these. Overall though I know I have things to work through with this sub and hoping it can help me move even further forward in whatever way that is.

 Talk about taking your POWER BACK & EMPOWERMENT ! Go Mag-Dude!! Strong Heart, and will,Man ! Facing the dragons, think good thoughts for your sword and Shield !! The Golden Healing Fleece awaits!!  Keep rockin' it Warrior !!