09-26-2023, 10:18 PM
So far this cycle has been far gentler than the last it almost feels like nothing is happening but it seems to be going on in the background as get random periods of depressed moods also feeling far more relaxed and neediness is dropping a bit to which is good. Seems to be a lot of intense dreams going on and memories popping up at the moment. One thing I have always struggled with is the fact that I thought I was really unattractive. I used to be a competitive runner so was in very good shape but still viewed myself as very unattractive and like no one would want me but the last few days I have had random memories of when girls (cute girls to) had shown me interest or when girls had given me their number without asking and then my mind goes to well how many times have you actually been rejected and I could really only come up with 2 times that I could remember. So it wasn't that I was unattractive it was that I was to shy to talk to anyone. So I'm guessing something is being worked on around rejection and self worth will be interesting to see where this one goes and it has held me back a lot in life and relationships.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of