09-24-2023, 12:57 AM
Defiantly is and starting to settle into it now just in time for my next cycle on.
So thought I may also post a few of the external changes I have noticed as well (these now seem far less important to me than internal shifts)
* Noticed I'm a lot more genuinely generous with people I care about. I do things from a very authentic place for them with no expectations of anything in return.
* Am able to speak up far more and can set boundaries when I need to with people as well
* My voice and laugh are louder
* People who seem to have some of their own issues with self esteem have started saying snide remarks and being passive aggressive with me and people who seem to have a good sense of self esteem seem to be a lot friendlier and I get on a lot better with them now
* Just had a family gathering and my mum who has always used fear, guilt and shame to control me and my actions was really appreciative and nice and not controlling at all (This change alone is big and very different). My dad who has never hugged me in my life gave me a big hug.
* Random people are saying Hi or chatting to me more often
* I am doing way more for my health and my environment (Cleaning everything, really looking after everything, improving my appearance, working out, eating well, losing weight etc). This is inspiring others to do the same (multiple people quit smoking, people going to see dentist after a long time, alcoholic friend trying to stop drinking etc)
* Less bad habits - barely watch TV and don't game anymore and watching less porn
* Getting more joy and happiness when spending time with good people and very aware of people that suck my energy away and naturally don't want to spend time with them
Also internally starting to have times where I am genuinely happy and at peace just spending time with myself and don't feel like I am missing out and feel quite whole and complete in that moment. This one's a bit strange but there are times when I'm alone that I have felt a warmth in my chest that I have only ever experienced being in bed with a partner that loves me.
So thought I may also post a few of the external changes I have noticed as well (these now seem far less important to me than internal shifts)
* Noticed I'm a lot more genuinely generous with people I care about. I do things from a very authentic place for them with no expectations of anything in return.
* Am able to speak up far more and can set boundaries when I need to with people as well
* My voice and laugh are louder
* People who seem to have some of their own issues with self esteem have started saying snide remarks and being passive aggressive with me and people who seem to have a good sense of self esteem seem to be a lot friendlier and I get on a lot better with them now
* Just had a family gathering and my mum who has always used fear, guilt and shame to control me and my actions was really appreciative and nice and not controlling at all (This change alone is big and very different). My dad who has never hugged me in my life gave me a big hug.
* Random people are saying Hi or chatting to me more often
* I am doing way more for my health and my environment (Cleaning everything, really looking after everything, improving my appearance, working out, eating well, losing weight etc). This is inspiring others to do the same (multiple people quit smoking, people going to see dentist after a long time, alcoholic friend trying to stop drinking etc)
* Less bad habits - barely watch TV and don't game anymore and watching less porn
* Getting more joy and happiness when spending time with good people and very aware of people that suck my energy away and naturally don't want to spend time with them
Also internally starting to have times where I am genuinely happy and at peace just spending time with myself and don't feel like I am missing out and feel quite whole and complete in that moment. This one's a bit strange but there are times when I'm alone that I have felt a warmth in my chest that I have only ever experienced being in bed with a partner that loves me.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
