09-21-2023, 09:31 AM
While I was on vacation, I decided to relax completely. That meant not trying to remember anything, including usage patterns, and not worrying about money at all. So I stopped using MM.
about half way through the vacation, I had a dream that I interpreted as some early part of my subconscious trying to communicate that it was free from MM's influence, and it didn't want to go back, didn't like it, and was asking me not to use it anymore. When I got back, I did some runs of the models to see what the best way forward to my financial goal is, and it indicated MM. So I started using MM again yesterday, 1 loop, v10. Felt the aura fire up and got to work instead of procrastinating.
This morning, I woke up with a severe back ache in my lowest back, which always means that my youngest inner child is scared. This happened last time, and MM overcame that and was doing it's thing, but this experience shows me that either it wasn't finished making the changes, or that little boy is stubborn as all hell. If he's not making changes, then I have work to do on the base communications module, which works with the pre-lingual parts of the awareness. It is only partly integrated at this time, only a small part of it in place just yet, so that would not be too surprising, but this is honestly amazing to me that this could potentially be resisted by that part of me. The only way that is possible is if there is not yet enough of the pre-lingual communication module in place.
Of course it is also possible that he was making changes, but is just very slow about it because it takes him a long time to feel comfortable with the changes. I can't know. But the dream seemed to be communicating that what the program is doing scares him, and he didn't like it because he cannot resist it. It is asking him to make changes to himself, and that has to be scary for him.
But... this is going to happen. I am going to achieve my financial goals, come hell or high water, and no part of me is going to stand in my way. As strong as he is, as stubborn as he is, I am all that and more, because I have experience, wisdom and willpower that has become even stronger since I was that age. I will have my way. I will make whatever changes I need to make to whatever parts of myself are necessary.
Now that I think about it, I really cannot bring myself to believe that that part of me could be overwhelmed and not be making changes to itself as instructed by the subliminal script. It is a slow, perhaps uncomfortable process, but considering what's in the script, how powerful the program is and how it succeeds in overriding the efforts of that part of me to avoid change... the only reasonable conclusion is that it's changing, but slowly, and requires constant reinforcement to make those changes, because it does not like change and is uncomfortable with change.
I will have to continue using MM for a while, then. It does please me that I have become able to create programs that are able to bend the will of even my most blindly stubborn and instinctual inner child. I was not sure I would ever achieve that.
about half way through the vacation, I had a dream that I interpreted as some early part of my subconscious trying to communicate that it was free from MM's influence, and it didn't want to go back, didn't like it, and was asking me not to use it anymore. When I got back, I did some runs of the models to see what the best way forward to my financial goal is, and it indicated MM. So I started using MM again yesterday, 1 loop, v10. Felt the aura fire up and got to work instead of procrastinating.
This morning, I woke up with a severe back ache in my lowest back, which always means that my youngest inner child is scared. This happened last time, and MM overcame that and was doing it's thing, but this experience shows me that either it wasn't finished making the changes, or that little boy is stubborn as all hell. If he's not making changes, then I have work to do on the base communications module, which works with the pre-lingual parts of the awareness. It is only partly integrated at this time, only a small part of it in place just yet, so that would not be too surprising, but this is honestly amazing to me that this could potentially be resisted by that part of me. The only way that is possible is if there is not yet enough of the pre-lingual communication module in place.
Of course it is also possible that he was making changes, but is just very slow about it because it takes him a long time to feel comfortable with the changes. I can't know. But the dream seemed to be communicating that what the program is doing scares him, and he didn't like it because he cannot resist it. It is asking him to make changes to himself, and that has to be scary for him.
But... this is going to happen. I am going to achieve my financial goals, come hell or high water, and no part of me is going to stand in my way. As strong as he is, as stubborn as he is, I am all that and more, because I have experience, wisdom and willpower that has become even stronger since I was that age. I will have my way. I will make whatever changes I need to make to whatever parts of myself are necessary.
Now that I think about it, I really cannot bring myself to believe that that part of me could be overwhelmed and not be making changes to itself as instructed by the subliminal script. It is a slow, perhaps uncomfortable process, but considering what's in the script, how powerful the program is and how it succeeds in overriding the efforts of that part of me to avoid change... the only reasonable conclusion is that it's changing, but slowly, and requires constant reinforcement to make those changes, because it does not like change and is uncomfortable with change.
I will have to continue using MM for a while, then. It does please me that I have become able to create programs that are able to bend the will of even my most blindly stubborn and instinctual inner child. I was not sure I would ever achieve that.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!