09-19-2023, 05:52 PM
Day 200,
I've entered a (minimum) two week break. Following some advice, I'm trying a self-imposed modality (no external sounds or audio) that can help remove some general resistance.
Feeling like I'm not long for Maverick. I'm 80:20 on Money Magnet over OGSF. MM is external, while I've spent lots of time on inner transformation; nearly 7 months on Maverick and 6 months on OF (more internally-based changes), with about a month of X4A-1000 in the middle.
Feeling like I need to build an externally-driven motivation for money; I don't do side hustles, I don't look for money, I'm not looking to advance in my career by looking for new jobs. Am two weeks into a business course, and I feel myself fighting at every step.
Thinking that Maverick tore out some of the programming that kept me on a self-improvement treadmill for the wrong reasons. My "give a shit" meter is very low, which is a double-ended sword; there are dysfunctional parts of myself that is glad that we've stopped shooting for the stars.
I've entered a (minimum) two week break. Following some advice, I'm trying a self-imposed modality (no external sounds or audio) that can help remove some general resistance.
Feeling like I'm not long for Maverick. I'm 80:20 on Money Magnet over OGSF. MM is external, while I've spent lots of time on inner transformation; nearly 7 months on Maverick and 6 months on OF (more internally-based changes), with about a month of X4A-1000 in the middle.
Feeling like I need to build an externally-driven motivation for money; I don't do side hustles, I don't look for money, I'm not looking to advance in my career by looking for new jobs. Am two weeks into a business course, and I feel myself fighting at every step.
Thinking that Maverick tore out some of the programming that kept me on a self-improvement treadmill for the wrong reasons. My "give a shit" meter is very low, which is a double-ended sword; there are dysfunctional parts of myself that is glad that we've stopped shooting for the stars.
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