My OGSFv2 (5.11G) Journal

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Yesterday, it dawned on me that I still have some shame around my sexuality, even though I wouldn't consider myself shy anymore in bedroom, when it comes to being sexual with a woman. I guess, there is something that still prevents me from fully letting go and being totally uninhibited sexually.
I would also have shame around watching porn and/ or masturbation, I feel like a loser every time I do it because it's an unproductive activity, and that time would be better spent  in other ways, or releasing that sexual energy with a woman. Which is true. I suppose once I let go of the shame, I will have a healthier relationship with myself.
I also met another woman that made a comment on how confident I appeared to be.

Today starts my first OFF cycle.