Day 141,
I came to the realization that I'm much more blessed than I realize.
I'm 31.
* I sleep great and have a clear conscience
* I don't live in regret or distress.
* I have no grey hairs or visible signs of aging roughly. In fact, I probably look 25-28. I've been told that I look 24 a couple of months ago. Got carded last week.
* I feel like a complete speaker in my own language. I have other languages at my disposal. My own mouth does not get me into trouble.
* I have let go of some of my major emotional hangups in the previous 12 months.
* I could live out the rest of my life with peace of mind if I continued along this path. Sure, I want more, but the basics are handled.
* I have no major addictions. I gave up daily coffee a couple of weeks ago. I need to abandon dopamine sites (YouTube, Facebook) and validation.
* I have no health issues. No aches or pains. No self-inflicted injuries (except for what some Jiu Jitsu blackbelt needlessly inflicted on me 4 years ago). No medications. No nagging health issues. Perfect vision. Sharp reflexes.
* I'd gotten with more women in the previous 3 years than the prior three decades, where two of those decades involved zero women.
* I am able-bodied and my strength, cardio, and vitality are at their highest ever. I have become a bit tank-ish and have to work on my agility once again to get it back to where it was.
* I have a growing skillset and my income will inevitably grow with time.
* My parents fumbled on some aspects of their parenting - not teaching me certain life lessons or preparing me - but I have support and stable relationships with them and my extended family.
But, there are some peculiarities to my life.
I'm pretty much left alone; women, men. Don't really get invites to do things. I need to be continuously proactive to get things going.
I like the traditional masculine architype, but I'm finding that it can be an easy crutch, as it's an identity that is pre-built, and all you need to do is assemble it like a cheap IKEA dresser. There is more value in finding a dynamic personality and to grow and explore each facet. Instead of strong, stoic and rigorous like the ox, you could become playful and savvy like the fox or serene and transcendent like the buck.
Every tattooed tough guy has got a lion or some tribal etchings.
I came to the realization that I'm much more blessed than I realize.
I'm 31.
* I sleep great and have a clear conscience
* I don't live in regret or distress.
* I have no grey hairs or visible signs of aging roughly. In fact, I probably look 25-28. I've been told that I look 24 a couple of months ago. Got carded last week.
* I feel like a complete speaker in my own language. I have other languages at my disposal. My own mouth does not get me into trouble.
* I have let go of some of my major emotional hangups in the previous 12 months.
* I could live out the rest of my life with peace of mind if I continued along this path. Sure, I want more, but the basics are handled.
* I have no major addictions. I gave up daily coffee a couple of weeks ago. I need to abandon dopamine sites (YouTube, Facebook) and validation.
* I have no health issues. No aches or pains. No self-inflicted injuries (except for what some Jiu Jitsu blackbelt needlessly inflicted on me 4 years ago). No medications. No nagging health issues. Perfect vision. Sharp reflexes.
* I'd gotten with more women in the previous 3 years than the prior three decades, where two of those decades involved zero women.
* I am able-bodied and my strength, cardio, and vitality are at their highest ever. I have become a bit tank-ish and have to work on my agility once again to get it back to where it was.
* I have a growing skillset and my income will inevitably grow with time.
* My parents fumbled on some aspects of their parenting - not teaching me certain life lessons or preparing me - but I have support and stable relationships with them and my extended family.
But, there are some peculiarities to my life.
I'm pretty much left alone; women, men. Don't really get invites to do things. I need to be continuously proactive to get things going.
I like the traditional masculine architype, but I'm finding that it can be an easy crutch, as it's an identity that is pre-built, and all you need to do is assemble it like a cheap IKEA dresser. There is more value in finding a dynamic personality and to grow and explore each facet. Instead of strong, stoic and rigorous like the ox, you could become playful and savvy like the fox or serene and transcendent like the buck.
Every tattooed tough guy has got a lion or some tribal etchings.
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