"I'm a peacock, you gotta let me fly" - Maverick Journal 2023

[Ampersnd]

Day 87,

Noticed the following:

• Not able to fall asleep, and I'm more restless. Wasn't able to sleep in or go back to sleep today.
  
• Forgetting to wear my smart watch to track sleep. I wake up and remember that I'm wearing my fancy watch.
  
• I'm wearing my fancy clothes inside the house, during and outside of work hours.
  
• I'm on 31 days noFap; I know that the Maverick sales page alluded to NoFappers as a disqualifier, but this resolve happened during my Maverick run. I started off being hypersexual in month #2, and had two women on rotation, then a very hot third came along, then the two started to fade. The last time I came was in the hottest girl's pussy. (condomed, of course). I was being a bit reckless, going without a condom with one of them (depending on her cycle), and pulling out. I don't recommend it
  
• I'm longing for a beautiful woman. I see a pretty woman on a thumbnail, and I'm thinking: "why is she soooo hot!" Why, God!" The thirst is real.
  
• My "look" and confidence from Day 1 is completely different from what it is today.