Day 84,
Two things:
1) My hair has to go. I've contemplated on this for a while, but I feel an urgency to buzz it down. I have the 'John Wick 1' hair with a middle part, but it gets messy and hard to manage. I don't want my look to be affected by putting on/taking off headphones, a gust of wind, or removing clothing.
Part of my plan might involve going corporate, though I would ideally transition to freelancing, then an agency. But I'm thinking about branding, and an unreliable mop of hair just won't cut. Need to be sharp, clean, but with an edge.
Also, my neck and traps are growing developing nicely from a few weeks of specific training, meaning that I've laid a foundation for my face and head.
2) Had spent the past week feeling resentful for my parent's parenting. Lacked understanding and perspective. No instruction or direction. No encouragement, though they would be quick to criticize.
I still notice that our conversation revolves around details, and the conversation dried up when we ran out of details to talk about. I learned that bringing up goals and dreams would get shut down.
I noticed that I felt a bit embarrassed and ashamed when I told my mom that I might miss out on their dinner to go to a first date dinner (but those plans fell through).
However, a lot of that went away when I realized that they were grooming me to do as well as them, much more quickly. And that came true, despite with a fair amount of baggage I have to work through.
Side note: Had a really good approach at the gym today. She has a boyfriend, but I spoke about random bullshit and related to her pretty profoundly.
Two things:
1) My hair has to go. I've contemplated on this for a while, but I feel an urgency to buzz it down. I have the 'John Wick 1' hair with a middle part, but it gets messy and hard to manage. I don't want my look to be affected by putting on/taking off headphones, a gust of wind, or removing clothing.
Part of my plan might involve going corporate, though I would ideally transition to freelancing, then an agency. But I'm thinking about branding, and an unreliable mop of hair just won't cut. Need to be sharp, clean, but with an edge.
Also, my neck and traps are growing developing nicely from a few weeks of specific training, meaning that I've laid a foundation for my face and head.
2) Had spent the past week feeling resentful for my parent's parenting. Lacked understanding and perspective. No instruction or direction. No encouragement, though they would be quick to criticize.
I still notice that our conversation revolves around details, and the conversation dried up when we ran out of details to talk about. I learned that bringing up goals and dreams would get shut down.
I noticed that I felt a bit embarrassed and ashamed when I told my mom that I might miss out on their dinner to go to a first date dinner (but those plans fell through).
However, a lot of that went away when I realized that they were grooming me to do as well as them, much more quickly. And that came true, despite with a fair amount of baggage I have to work through.
Side note: Had a really good approach at the gym today. She has a boyfriend, but I spoke about random bullshit and related to her pretty profoundly.
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