Aces High: A Maverick Journal

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First, after you finish your third month of using Maverick, give yourselves at least 2 to 3 weeks off before starting the fourth month. This time off will help you integrate the script as you've listened to it now, and without further input for a period, it'll just run and help you better execute its goals, however that pertains to you.

As I mentioned in a previous post, the most growth from Maverick starts in your third and fourth months. You'll at once be elated and at other times you'll be slammed face to face with your own personal failures. These failures aren't there to taunt you, but for you to face them and in effect face yourself and let it go. Maverick removes any blocks that you have to reaching your full potential, and it does so in a very unique kind of way. If you cast a light into the darkness it's no longer dark.

My experience goes against part of what you've written is that I don't want to give up Maverick at all. I do realize that I have to attack my inner shame and guilt head on with OGSF, but the inner turbulence is not throwing me off this program.

Also, I have a growing desire to increase the frequency of the playthroughs; not something that I will seriously entertain, but I'm committed to pushing through the pain vs deflecting from it.

But yes, an abundance of inner turbulence. Being slapped in the face with the false paths I've followed (and inevitably learned painful lessons along the way). Being shown examples of other men who have gotten their act together a whole decade before I've had it. Who've had sexual abundance 15 years before me. In part due to inner forces that act on me without my knowledge or control (i.e. unconscious beliefs cultivated in childhood). The whole thing is dreadful and sickening, but also empowering and exhilarating at the same time. No matter where I go, I cannot escape this inner tension, but I know that it is fortifying me into someone with control over the direction of their life.

Was your experience at all similar?