05-17-2023, 06:13 PM
Day 77,
Feeling discouraged.
It sucks that I'm grinding to "level up" and the actual levelling up is not perceivable.
Even though there are people that I see regularly, I'm not really spending time with them outside of my.
In part, I've avoided meaningful connections with other people because there are parts of myself that I've been afraid of integrating.
On the other hand, other people have their own hang-ups.
This is a strange feeling to have because I had a good high about 10 hours ago when I led a group of 40 people through a team activity, and did it with no hiccups.
There are levels to the amount of "bossing up" one can do.
Had almost no desire to do my chores; actually sat and scrolled on Youtube Shorts (very similar to Tiktok in that respect) for 15-30 minutes, which is the RAREST of rareties.
Feeling discouraged.
It sucks that I'm grinding to "level up" and the actual levelling up is not perceivable.
Even though there are people that I see regularly, I'm not really spending time with them outside of my.
In part, I've avoided meaningful connections with other people because there are parts of myself that I've been afraid of integrating.
On the other hand, other people have their own hang-ups.
This is a strange feeling to have because I had a good high about 10 hours ago when I led a group of 40 people through a team activity, and did it with no hiccups.
There are levels to the amount of "bossing up" one can do.
Had almost no desire to do my chores; actually sat and scrolled on Youtube Shorts (very similar to Tiktok in that respect) for 15-30 minutes, which is the RAREST of rareties.
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