04-18-2023, 08:10 PM
I think I'm getting to the root of the fear of death, lately I have constant thoughts about my death or worring too much about that which makes me hypervigilant of my heart rate or the pain I feel usually caused by anxiety, and today there were many chances for triggering an anxiety attack, my subconscious was assuming i was dying then my mind comes in to say everything is fine is just anxiety and somehow regressed when i was a kid (I mean i perceive that part of myself as when I was a kid and crack my skull open), somehow i calmed my child self but that's not enough so later happened again and started feeling very tired, i could have fall asleep every time i closed my eyes then I remember how I felt when attending the hospital as a kid after cracking my head, it was kind of similar how my consciuosness was fading and then returning, right now i still feel a bit tired but not that much, hopefully is working.
