Day 38,
Back home and I can log in with Ampersnd again. Glad that this previous login issue has been handled.
Suggestion for the forum's developer: if the login attempt provides a 500 error code, then maybe redirect to a more specific webpage that explains what went wrong. I think it's a literal login issue, but I was getting a whole page with a 500 error code.
Might be adding to this note a bit.
Noticing that the arguments from the manosphere have been creating dread and discomfort; it's like my psyche is intolerant to that shit. It feels like a lot of it leads to punishing the women that you choose to interact with (not the ones that you reject romantically). It's also framing itself as un-disprovable, as they can only be proven right down the road and shit hits the fan.
MORE ADDED IN AM OF DAY 39,
Had a weekend away to see family for Easter.
Have been tired the last few days, in spite of above average sleep, and in spite of caffeine consumption. Slept in a different bed.
Experiencing a dissatisfaction, and at the same time, have moments where my feel like my heart is overflowing and bursting with love and joy.
At times, I feel the same intensity of sexual desire as I did in my early 20s; have to let off some of that steam or I would never get rest again.
Back home and I can log in with Ampersnd again. Glad that this previous login issue has been handled.
Suggestion for the forum's developer: if the login attempt provides a 500 error code, then maybe redirect to a more specific webpage that explains what went wrong. I think it's a literal login issue, but I was getting a whole page with a 500 error code.
Might be adding to this note a bit.
Noticing that the arguments from the manosphere have been creating dread and discomfort; it's like my psyche is intolerant to that shit. It feels like a lot of it leads to punishing the women that you choose to interact with (not the ones that you reject romantically). It's also framing itself as un-disprovable, as they can only be proven right down the road and shit hits the fan.
MORE ADDED IN AM OF DAY 39,
Had a weekend away to see family for Easter.
Have been tired the last few days, in spite of above average sleep, and in spite of caffeine consumption. Slept in a different bed.
Experiencing a dissatisfaction, and at the same time, have moments where my feel like my heart is overflowing and bursting with love and joy.
At times, I feel the same intensity of sexual desire as I did in my early 20s; have to let off some of that steam or I would never get rest again.
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