03-29-2023, 11:56 AM
There is a big change going on, it started yesterday when I triggered perfectionism again and try to feel miserable for it, then there was a conflict in my mind about how my life isn't perfect and why should I care if I failed, then today I just accept I fail and continue until I started to consider lots of variables in life and reach the conclusion that I can no longer pretend to control it so I reach another conclusion that is "I don't need to follow any rules, not even mine" then my head started to feel overloaded, my failures no longer matter to me, being correct no longer matter to me, controlling my life no longer matter to me and I feel great.
