03-06-2023, 04:33 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-06-2023, 04:38 PM by AmpersndThe2nd.)
(03-06-2023, 09:34 AM)Shannon Wrote:(03-04-2023, 08:34 PM)AmpersndThe2nd Wrote: Fair; I may be overstating things you've said, and I wouldn't want that done to me.
As for DMSI, when it came to results or mind-state, I ran it for about 50 days, and I had the following results:
- Had an old flame come back in my life, buy me lunch, bang me, then disappear (booty call?)
- Was seeing an attractive gal of about 4'11", but she lost attraction for me over time
- Lost interest in doing cold approach
- Felt like I was let in on the 'world of women' on an energetic level
- Had a brief few-day spirt when patients or colleagues would ask "are you single, etc."
- Had a pub crawl with some martial arts friends; became miserable and closed in from the anxiety.
- Pushed myself to go out to a couple of bars (to see if I could get over that public fear), and relaxed a bit, approached a bit, and had no results.
- Consulted with you, and found that OF v4 would reduce fear in the cases where DMSI would not, so I went with that.
So it sounds to me like you have a specific beef with something in X4A-1000, and for you to be resisting it at that level of impact is quite impressive, actually. It would also require something very specific to trigger that sort of response. Since X4A is really a very focused program, there has to be something specific you are trying to avoid.
Given the results you got from DMSI, and these results, I would say most likely you have some sort of deep subconscious trauma(s) that you have associated with sex, thus making it a threat for some reason. Pardon my inquiry, but to understand if this is accurate, I'd like to ask if you have any issues in your sex life outside of these programs? Are they triggering issues where you normally succeed in getting to sex, or are you having trouble getting to sex regardless?
You would know best, as you've built both programs from the ground up and have run them yourself. There could be a specific trauma that leads to X4A not executing.
When it comes to sex life issues, I have much less of an issue now than I did when I was younger. I have two girlfriends, and both know that I see the other. I'd say they're both in the 6-7 category when it comes to looks. I don't put in too much time or energy into my dating life, and that's to allow for more time for my career goals and purpose.
But, the issue of getting the women I want - the 8s, 9s, 10s, so to speak - was always tough.
When I was a decade younger, and was more horny than embarrassed, I'd make many approaches, and I'd get numbers, but I'd fumble when it came to setting up dates, relating with the gal, etc.. I still had smaller-scale relationships back then.
I also had a major MGTOW/Red pill rage phase - starting a full decade before that topic blew up on Tiktok 1-2 years ago - that has persisted in smaller amounts even until my run of Overcoming Fear.
I was much more awkward as a kid in high school; shy and whatnot. Always worried that I would get into trouble; might be an issue of shame.
I don't really fell shame nowadays, but that doesn't rule out its operating in the background.