OFV4 Special Case Use; Digging Deep

[Chris P. Bacon]

So the moment I decided I'm going to run Maverick I start getting TID.

I have no timeframes as to when as I am running OF until I find a good stopping point. It is still working and hybrid is a good format as far as I can tell.

Makes me wonder how far TID can reach now.

What are you getting in terms of TID from Maverick?

TID from Maverick was all in the form of strikingly different trains of thought compared to normal. I wrote a brilliant (at least in my estimation) excerpt in your now-deleted journal. Sadly I did not copy it and the wayback machine doesn't cover all the pages of your journal so there I am unable to retrieve it. The TID has actually settled down now as I committed to running OF till I find a "completion" point. This was interesting to me because I was dealing with different future possibilities and experiencing their effects and my decision, quite unsurprisingly changed which future "line" I found myself on. Anywho; TID from Maverick was noticeably self-sufficient and actualized. It was marked by clarity of thought and the removal of the "voices"  of others in my thinking, something that I did not know was there in the first place.  These "voices" seem to have been adopted by my person, most likely from a young age and parroted in my own thoughts all the while not really being my own thoughts. They seem to, in my case,  serve as a limiter of sorts as well as a possible concept of externally imposed morality? I am not sure fully as the TID is not happening anymore. 

Self-actualization was another undercurrent. I seemed to be un or subconsciously supported by my true self and it's expression. This appeared to push me in a direction while assuming it to be a foregone conclusion. Confidence of self I have never known. 

There was this skepticism for normal culture and society and an assumption that it was a limiting factor more than a positive one. This sense of having to give up too much of myself to fit in with the rest of society was present and I felt like to relate to the average person I had to sacrifice to much of myself. I was very critical of these concepts and found any sort of desire to fit in with the crowd non-existant.

I felt a deep sense of providence; like every step was provided for and a deep sense of meaning for life. I believed that we all have a purpose and that purpose is "fully funded". A leap of faith to become didn't seem difficult or scary, it felt as natural as could be. 

This is as much as I can remember since it has been a while since I experienced TID from Maverick. Between Duke.togo's description and my own TID it felt like my dream sub. If the TID is to be believed I most likely would pick that sub from any of the subs you have or will make save for HOY as youth levels of hormones is one of the foundations of health and longevity and probably the anti-aging sub when it comes out.